11/18/17 - Thanks to all that have read and may still be interested in Shattered Dreams, posting a small chapter and hoping for a couple more before 2018.

10/11/15 - Thanks to all that have continued to follow the Meredith and Derek stories I have posted.

Two remain incomplete, and though inspiration is difficult given Derek's character assassination; figuratively and literally, it is my intent to finish Shattered Dreams and Obliterated Hopes. Warm regards, Jasmin.

July 8, 2013 – Thanks for selecting to read this updated (2009) profile.

It’s hard to believe I’ve been writing Meredith and Derek stories over five years!

Deep disappointment at the end of season three led me to find fanfiction, and again after 4.11 I was so disappointed in Derek, and could not understand why Shonda Rhimes would kill McDream; Rose remains a thorn! I decided to write my first fic, and attempt to make McDreamy redeemable, and looking back over one million words and 235 chapters of Shattered Dreams, I hope it was accomplished. I hope you have enjoyed it as much as I have enjoyed sharing it with you. There's a bit more of the story to tell, since as a reader I don't like loose ends or abrupt changes, and Meredith's dream was "prophetic" and after so many of you have continued to read and be so enthusiastic, I want you give you a glimpse of their dreams being fulfilled.

There are now a total of 11 Meredith and Derek stories, nine of them completed. Each of them the result of disappointment in what became Grey’s Absurdity to me; especially the twenty second miscarriage confession – each story became an attempt to fill in the gaps.

Shattered Dreams and Obliterated Hopes will be completed during 2013.

Those of you that have read more than one of my stories, know that family is incredibly important to me, and although we do not see much Shepherd family involvement on Grey’s, I have chosen to write them into my versions of Meredith & Derek; mainly for two reasons. First, that the support of family, blood and extended, has been an interwoven fabric of my life. However, even in writing fan fiction, have made attempts to keep to the original characterization that we’ve seen develop on screen, and that brings me to the second reason – I cannot imagine how it’s been possible for nine seasons to have seen Derek’s mother only once; Amelia twice, conveniently, as a result of crossovers with dwindling Private Practice ratings, and most important of all – how plagued by forgetfulness Grey’s Writers become – we were introduced to a Derek in season one, that clearly implied his family was incredibly important when he told Meredith that all four of his "very girly" sisters would be at his bedside if he were ever hurt or sick.

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoy my versions of the legend of Meredith and Derek, and the various glimpses into their future, and if you do – a comment would be ever so appreciated. Warmest regards and very best wishes for an enjoyable, friends/family/loved-ones filled summer! Jasmin

p.s. if any of you are twitter fans - merderfan05 is the screen name I use.