"The key is in the word "secret" Teri, we're not telling you so not to quote Glen but fuck off!"

"What do you fuckin mean you don't know how it happened? You're a driver you were bringing a government minister into the department not delivering someone's fuckin take away pizza what do you mean you just left her in the car for ten minutes?...

When political world gets too much, when there doesn't seem to be any reason to get up again and do it all the next day, there's always home and when home is as mad as the Murray house suddenly politics doesn't seem so bad after all!

Now she was sure their world was about to be turned upside down and she couldn't bring herself to tell him yet until she was sure and more importantly sure about what she wanted to do about it if it was true.

If channel 4 weren't careful rather than a fun cookery show they may have their first ever snuff show when they killed each other leaving no one to win on the last day and nothing but a pile of bodies to fill the closing credits.

I hate Friday 13th. I just thought I'd put that out there. I don't imagine it will surprise any of you but before we go any further I want to make it clear that on top of my usual concerns and worries on an average day or even an average Friday putting the number 13 in front of the day is enough to freak me out totally.

"Half an hour but I swear if this ends up on the front page of The Sun on the morning I'm setting Malcolm Tucker on you and I can tell you it's not an experience you'll enjoy you'll not be communicating with the dead you'll be one of them when he's finished with you."

She knew the day was coming when that would be exactly what they'd do but until then she'd remind him again later why it was worth all the hassle that came with keeping it their little secret.

After the perfect wedding there's nothing for it but to have the perfect honeymoon.

You will get over me, move on and live the life you deserve to have and which I wanted with all my heart to share and I will watch over you and be there in the quiet when you need me most. Until then I have a different path to tread, one free from pain and disease, one that leads me quietly, peacefully now into the arms of waiting angels.

The way just being home with him can induce temporary amnesia about the world outside is what keeps me sane and he'll never understand how important this is or how much I love him for it.

For the first time in my life I've left my head out of the equation and gone completely with my heart and as I once again give myself completely to him I can't help but hope that won't be as big a mistake for me as it proved to be for Ginny.

Logically she knew he was right a place was just a place and it help no mystical significance, no power over them and their happiness yet as sleep finally claimed her she could still feel that seed of doubt planting itself firmly in her head ready to grow into a fully-fledged tree of concern at a moment's notice.

Now though with a single grumpy statement he'd summed up what was wrong with their relationship and always would be. Ultimately she would always be less important than whatever he had going on.

Jean, Robbie, Laura and James go on a very special team building weekend

He had absolutely no idea what was going on but he knew one thing he needed to keep her talking and distract her or he was pretty sure he was seconds away from seeing his ever controlled boss have a complete meltdown.

One very long night and a little unscheduled family therapy leads to some interesting results.

She knew she could sit there running over every summer that might be even close to when the photo was taken and come up with a million connected memories but none that would explain why someone had picked now, over thirty years later to contact her about them nor why they'd do it in such an obtuse manner.

18:37 on a Saturday night and Oxford loses power causing more than a few problems for its residents.

A very special present leads to months of puppy related fun for Jean and James

I don't trust her and I don't like her and I have every intention of keeping an eye on her from now on.

She took a lot from the three of them and Brian in particular but now he knew that she would only take so much, if they were stupid enough to push it, to get to the stage where she really felt it was the last straw that broke her patience with them then she'd stop at nothing to put an end to things.

Internet dating can be fun, scary and even all out weird.

When put like that I really don't have a choice do I? If things stay the way they are I'm going to end up losing him from my life altogether because I can't carry on working alongside him and pretending I don't feel anything when I know I do.

There's something big in the air but you just can't smell what it is yet and he really wanted it to be the next day so he could be reassured it was nothing and go back to his normal life.

Something in the back of her head was still telling her trusting Brian to advise them on travel websites might be a mistake but she wasn't going to think about it anymore she was going to focus on their fantastic dream holiday and hope the knot in her stomach was wrong.

A twenty-six year old case leads to some interesting times for Sandra and the boys.

Everything is changing because of one little thing!

DoSAC hosts a children's Halloween party and mayhem ensues.

How could anyone regret loving someone who without a single touch can make me want them anyplace, anytime, anywhere and make me desperate to feel that over and over again?

So that was how it started, that was the beginning of three months of madness that lead up to today. Today I am going to become Mrs Jean Hathaway and I can't wait.

Now together as two couples rather than four friends how do things go for Jean, James, Laura and Robbie now that everything has changed.

There was another crash and the carriage began to tilt spilling them, their drinks and everyone else in the carriage crashing toward the windows with a loud squeal of train breaks and a chorus of panicked screams.

He knew she'd set the bar high with this latest challenge and he was going to have to come up with something very special to match it.

A dance contest, a couple of million viewers and a group of law enforcement professionals with not a day's dance experience between them. What could possibly go wrong?

He'd known it wasn't going to be easy to get her to look for the silver lining in all of this but seeing how she was going to have to get to their home for the night he was now sure it was going to be completely impossible.

He is everything to me just as he says I am to him and I'll face anything, climb any mountain, with him by my side feeding my need to feel like someone out there really loves me and that is something that shatters any lie, however old, into a million pieces.

"Yep and it was just getting interesting numbers five to ten are about interesting and fool proof ways to please your partner. I thought we might give them a try."

"I had to come. You looked amazing tonight. I can't fight this anymore. I want you so much." My mind is drowning in an ocean of questions.. How did he get in? Why did a simple team dinner like ones we have done a million times before prompt this? What does it mean?

He needed to make it up to her and that meant, at least as first, sleep definitely wasn't a option. He had stuff to do, if he couldn't help fix the mess he'd made he could make sure that by the time she got home she might just realise that it was worth it.

Sometimes looking at something from a different perspective means that what could be a complete disaster becomes the best part of the weekend he sees now that perspective is everything.

That is the nature of addiction you always need one more fix however crazy it may be and I am completely, wholeheartedly and crazily addicted to you.

When they do and my grandchildren ask why I did I hope I'll always have made it clear to them that I do it all for them, that they are the centre of my world and the power behind what I am absolutely sure will be a very rickety throne that without them it would crumble and take me with it.

For now the rose stands guard over the place we met, where our love grew and where it reached maturity just like the beautiful plant that is now the symbol of our love, our undying love.

"Tell us about it Mr Richardson." Sandra smiled as the old man looked off into the distance through the train window and their journey began with the train pulling away from the station.

"You are still drop dead gorgeous, nothing about you could change that fact you just don't look like you that's all I was surprised but then that's what we want isn't it?"

"As of this moment we're on holiday so relax and enjoy it ok?"

"Ok." Sandra smiled pushing aside the doubts she was feeling as the sound of a tooting horn from outside signalled the beginning of their trip and she felt her excitement rise again.

Doubts may come and go but our love with last eternity now all I have to do is focus on what I'm going to do and remember to keep the faith, the faith in her, the faith in us and the faith in the fact that nothing be it distance or time is too far or too long for us to survive.

So long as we keep living up to what she can get from her X-rated reading material that'll do for me.

Now though I get the feeling that I'm going to find it a hell of a lot harder and as I climb the stairs blindly following his instructions I get the feeling I'm in even more trouble tonight than I was an hour ago and this time it has nothing to do with DIY.

Suddenly the world doesn't seem so bad after all, yeah there are plenty of people out there willing to pull me down but so long as he's around to build me back up again I'll manage just fine.

Not only had she got through the interview without ending up with yet another article in print portraying her as a sour faced personality devoid harridan but Glen's over confidence had come back to bite him in the ass and proved that what goes around truly does come around.

I know I may never grow old with her I know someone has already claimed that right and she may never want to change that but for now the hope that she might and the little bit of herself she's given to me will make me feel forever like the world is a different place, a much better one.

She knew she may have over reacted but ultimately she wasn't going to apologise for needing a little reassurance and she was sure of one thing most of all. Whether it was making beds or planning their future they'd always get it right in the end provided they did it together.

I've never been able to define what it is about you that has ensnared me so completely, but right now I don't care as long as you love me. If this is how it feels, if this is what happens when I just accept it for what it is then I'm more than happy to cling to the undefinable and be grateful for it.

You may now be mine but I am as much yours, you caught me unconditionally and till the day I die the thought of doing this again, having you so close, feeling how much you love me will forever be completely intoxicating.

That's the scales of justice. That's the perfect balance. That is why we are so perfect together.

So as the evening ends I'll leave grateful that I held you, danced with you, one last time and accept that it will never happen again.

He may have learned his lesson but if every time he forgot what she'd told him he was going to get reminded in such an amazing way it might be worth "accidently" forgetting a little more often.

Without him my life would be nothing right now, I wouldn't have my soul mate, the other half of me, and that is unthinkable so if it has been a sacrifice it's been one that was definitely worth making.

She knew she'd always want to know and she'd always potentially be hurt by what she found out. That was the double edged sword of knowledge and memory but so long as she had them to go looking for her if she felt like running away she'd always be ok.

She knew there were challenges ahead, big ones and they would all be tested much more than any biker gang initiation by what Brian had to go through.

"Gerry! Oh my god what have you done?"

Oh my I love the way he's looking at me right now frankly so long as he keeps doing that I don't care how long it takes him to come to bed at night the fact that he's getting into bed beside me and that he is mine is enough for me even if his bedtime routine is a little on the unusual side."

Now in the shadow of the moon in the ebony sky with your eyes fused with mine I know this is where I am meant to be, you are the person I was born to spend my life with, what we have can never be destroyed it is as solid as the stone walls of the hotel we're staying in and it always will be.

The day certainly hadn't ended the way she'd expected it to but she had a whole new respect for the observational skills of their elderly witness and very much looked forward to paying her a visit to check a few details on her statement and thank her of course.

She's the woman I thought I'd never find, she's the patch my heart needed after Val was stolen away and I wasted my chance now I'll learn to live with it with nothing but my pride to see me through and warm me on the dark and lonely journey ahead.

She still wasn't looking forward to the rest of the afternoon and the fact she would inevitably do something else that she would find cringe worthy before it was over but with him around nothing would ever be too hard to cope with even a sports themed garden party.

Yeah well I didn't feel like waiting and I don't care what other girls would do I'm not like the rest of the girls. That's where you made your first mistake when you started this all those month ago, your second mistake would be not recovering damn quick and getting back to what you were supposed to be doing in the first place.

Jean and James have an interesting late night discussion about sides of the bed and chivalry.

I love you because above all and setting everything else aside you are you. I love that you are all the things I've already said and a million more things.

He'd almost allowed himself to believe that the game they had been playing had run its course and was over and if he was honest he was disappointed at the thought that it might be. Now though as he saw the familiar challenge in her gaze he knew the ball was once again in his court

I have a feeling that things are about to improve for both of us this weekend and if this is the sort of payback he's going to want I should leave him alone more often with my mad relations.

They had a lot of missed time to make up for and he had a feeling by the time it was over he'd have had a lot more exercise than any of the guys playing sports that day and he was sure he was going to enjoy it a lot more than they had too.

"Yeah well it certainly beats lying around out here working on getting rid of my tan lines."

"There's no point looking at me like that you were warned. Maybe next time we say don't ask you'll listen to us."

They were about to move into their first home, make a life for themselves and in truth she'd never been happier so maybe he'd done her a favour.

I hear myself tell you that you'll never shed a single tear because of me, that I will never break your heart or disappoint you. I promise you that you are my life, that without you I'm nothing, that I belong to you heart, body and soul.

He had just been reminded that a happy excitable Sandra was definitely preferable to a ranting argumentative one and he wasn't sure being let in on the secret had turned out to be worth it after all. ..

I know because I would trust him with my life, all of it good and bad including the box of secrets now back in it's rightful place absorbing the chill in the air until the next time I need to feel it's icy metallic sting whenever that might be.

"Yep it's a thing we've always done and have you seen the doctor these days he's gorgeous."

I can live with never seeing that smile again, never hearing her say my name, never smelling her perfume or feeling the heat of her body mix with mine when she stands close. I can't live with the knowledge she'll never be mine, that is why I have to go.

She knew she could make it through this with him by her side and the knowledge that when she had those "something's gotta give" moments there was always the roof were no one would ever think to look for her. No one but him.

It's true what they say 24 hours is a long time in politics and since yesterday everything's changed and I wouldn't go back even if I could.

I still don't know how I'm going to do it, I don't even know if I can but what I do know is with him and the others behind me I'll have a damn good try and no one can ask more than that.

I love you with all my heart and even if for now the only witness to that love are the walls of this room I know it will never change and that's enough for now.

It would do him no harm to think he was still in trouble for a little longer and in the meantime she'd enjoy following through on her promise to kiss him and wherever that may lead.

He is my one true love and one day, maybe soon, he'll make my dreams come true until then my heart will continue to beat for him and those stolen moments when I'm sure in his moments of contemplation it is me he thinks of.

For now I'll let it slide, but later I have every intention of reminding him exactly what 48 year old women are capable of and I'll enjoy every minute of doing so.

"In dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own..."

I have moved on, left him behind in favour of a love that eclipses what I had with him and I've moved on and that for me is all that matters now.

If she kisses me like she is right now every time I do something to make her a little more comfortable through the heat wave we've been promised in the coming weeks I think the question will really be what have I done to deserve her and to deserve the fact that she loves me.

Remember when I said my life couldn't get any better? It turns out I was wrong it just did.

However unusual his methods had been he'd proved that all it takes to really remind you you're appreciated is someone who remembers the little things that make it all worthwhile.

I will revisit it again over and over but I will never relive it in reality I've had my snapshot of happiness and now the it's back to reality until the next time he glances at me and I'm transported back to LA. To our own perfect movie moment under the Californian sun.

He would always hold a special place in his heart for thunder and lightning and the way it had brought them together even if it hadn't changed her opinion of storms it had left him with a deep and abiding love for them.

She headed for the door sure she would be able to come up with something that would make him pay for criticising her TV choices then watching them as soon as her back was turned and quite looking forward to deciding what that punishment might be.

I've lost count of the number of hairline cracks there are in my heart caused by moments exactly like this but I know that one day it will shatter completely and then without ever knowing he held it he will have dropped the most precious gift I could ever give him

Glad that this crisis at least had passed and things would be fine until the audit next year when they would be guaranteed to forget again and have to do it all over again.

For now we have to focus on computer fuck ups and screaming Scot's men later though I will get him back for this and show him I have a few hidden talents of my own.

My emotions are no longer confused, they're crystal clear and I can't wait to move on hand in hand with the woman I love.

No matter what comes or goes my love for her will never wain instead it will continue to grow forming a bond that I know will be everlasting.

"DoSAC minister in food fight with local children and comes out bottom of the pile."

The weekend may not ahead gone exactly. How they had been planning but right then she was finding it impossible to care ultimately she had gotten what she had wanted all along and she'd take that no matter how they had got there.

"I think I've got a ghost."

He knew there'd be more moments like this, there'd be times when she would worry that people thought he was too young for her and he'd worry the opposite but so long as they were able to reassure each other just like they were now he was confident they'd be fine, after all age really was just a number and one that he found it hard to care about when she was anywhere near.

She swore from then on giving in to their need for each other when the only means of satisfying it was using mobile technology would definitely be off the agenda.

"Gerry where's my toasted sandwich maker?"

He is now officially busted he better make sure this weekend is extra special or I'm telling Paula then he really will regret it!

"I swear if it rings again I'm going to throw it against the fucking wall….."

"Just because it is like a winter's day outside doesn't mean we can't have a picnic, personally I think this is better than sitting on the side of a football pitch."

One day they may be able to fully express how dependant they truly are on each other but until then they will settle for what they have and revel in it even if it must remain forever unspoken.

"Besides instead of spending my date night with one of my favourite boys in the world I got to spend it with two of them that's not too bad a way to pass the evening if you ask me."

. I can't take away over twenty years of my life that I spent with Richard and I wouldn't want to because without them I'd never have had him. What I can do though is say goodbye to it once and for all and that's exactly what I plan to do starting tonight.

He knew to beat this he was going to have to come up with something pretty special and he couldn't think of anything he was looking forward to doing more at that moment.

I know now there' a chance I know you still feel something for me and while I may need to earn back your trust there's hope. Hope that I haven't lost the one thing I had no idea that has ever made me see the light in the darkness of the world we live in.

She may have beaten him comprehensively on the court but…. it was advantage Ollie and in a few hours he would be the ultimate winner.

"I'll say I am, fuck if every Christmas was like this one I'd grow to fucking love it."

"Next time you decide to laugh behind my back about the fact I don't want to get in a lift of have a bit of a meltdown about a situation we find ourselves in you'll think twice."

"The next time you bring an animal of any sort into this office you will be leaving permanently and so will it understood?

For all her money and power the one thing Kitty Campbell would never have was the one thing she did. Someone to love her and make sure that no matter what anyone said she always felt like the most beautiful, womanly person alive and that would do for her.

What they had was perfect and he had every intention of making her see, over time, that it was always going to be that way and the issue of fatherhood was irrelevant so long as he had her.

"One dog, two cats, a rabbit, a gerbil, a stick insect, 12 tropical fish, an iguana and a snake. The snake is new, Ella got him for her birthday last month he's called Malcolm."

To see her, taste her, touch her, hear her, smell her I would crawl over broken glass. She is the only woman I have ever needed and the only one I ever will because she is sense-sational.

Tonight I hope I've proved once and for all that she never has anything to worry about, that I am hers regardless of who or what might come along? How could I not be when everything I am and everything I ever want to be is so completely tied up in her?

If she ever allows me to show them all how much I love her and that's she's mine it will be so different every triumph and every moment of pain that she has will be mine too now and for always.

She knows now they will do whatever it takes to find some time to act out their fantasies but in the meantime daydreams form a sort of agonising foreplay and she's more than happy to give up to them.

Anyone who could give her an evening like he had and couple make her feel so loved was worth holding on to and that was exactly what she planned on doing.

Addiction to her and how it felt to be with her was something he knew he'd suffer from for the rest of his life and if these stolen nights were the only way they could express their need then he'd take it because if no strings attached nights like this were all they ever had it would still be worth every second.

The first time she was drunk they never spoke of it, the second time he was and it was completely ignored the third time they were both sober and everything changed.

"No now I'm thinking about if you've lost your fucking mind."

The previous night she'd stolen something she thought she had no right to, today she knew that not only had she not stolen anything that night but she had actually taken what she'd no idea she owned already and to be found out in that way made it all worthwhile.

It may not be real or something that would ever be more than the occasional frustrated fumble on a desk or wherever but right then she felt more alive than she could remember feeling in a long time so if that wasn't real she'd take make believe over reality any day.

In you I have truly found my heaven and it's where I will stay forever in your arms and forever in love with the only woman who has ever been able to make me feel complete.

The question was though how long that reprieve would last and what he was going to say when he was faced with the question again.

Sandra laughed watching as he walked away toward the kitchen and thinking that once in a while I little bit of jealousy wasn't such a bad thing after all.

In future though I will definitely remember to make sure she's the first to know, my first call because she's the centre of my world and that's something I don't ever intend to forget again.

A late night, too much wine and some serious girl talk leads to admissions and interventions that could change everything.

She has become his ever present pilot light meaning that no situation is ever too dark, that he knows is worth clinging to and he has no intention of ever letting go.

Closing the office door again she returned to the paperwork on her desk smiling at the difference half an hour could make, she'd still been in a foul mood when he walked in but now she had never felt more relaxed and she knew as long as she had him to manage her anger she could deal with anything.

Away back to a life without you, a life full of regrets and a life that will forever be haunted by the image of you and want I could still have.

I know that tonight I may have claimed her as mine but she's only cemented her already tight grip on me and that list of women that I I've made love to will not get any longer, the Standing charm, the Standing moves are now for her pleasure only but so long as she continues to let me indulge in the wonder that is her why would I care, who else would I need.

"You are possibly the most impatient man I've ever met."

Even in death he'd proved he knew what was best for her and that was something she knew she'd be grateful for until the day she does and met him again to hear him say "I told you so."

Now and then there is a blue moon in the sky and when there is something wonderful, magical and life changing may just be coming your way.

A possible case of mistaken identity takes Sandra and Gerry on a road trip to the highlands.

As she closed her eyes and let the warm water wash over her, washing him away this time for good she felt confident that no matter what her punishment in the life beyond it would be worth it to finally feel able to move on in this one.

Zealot like dedication is what you have inspired in me and which I have willingly given up to for this feeling, for the completeness and the exhilaration that I feel now I'll have happily be dedicated to you for life.

Why risk what we have for the sake of three words, 8 letters, nothing in linguistic terms but which can turn the world upside down with the power they hold.

What happened that night though had never happened before or since. Could that work? The "but it was only once" defence?

I can't wait to see where we go from here and what else she can do with those wonderful, talented magic fingers that have brought us both what we always wanted.

There would be more moments just like it he knew that but as long as he could guide her toward focusing not on the sadness she felt now but on the bubble gum and candy floss of her childhood she'd get past it all in the end.

I will forever remember this first time and how it confirmed that to love you is what I was born to do and what I will continue to do until the day I die.

She didn't think so because for that one night with him, for that one experience that proved all her fantasies of him had been justified and would feed many more fantasies to come eternal damnation was a small price to pay.

As you fall asleep your body wrapped around mine, your rhythmic contented breathing my metronome keeping my heart and my soul grounded you make me want to be better than I ever hoped I could be.

Gerry decides it's time to do something about the letter he received from Jack.

Maybe someday you'll realise that you can inspire such love because of who and what you are and if you don't it won't matter because I can love you enough for both of us.

Just know that you have stolen my heart and handle it with care because it won't take much for it to shatter into a million pieces and if that were to happen at your hands I know it would never recover.

What we have now makes every second of what came before worthwhile and that's all that matters. It's all different now and that's the way I plan on making sure it stays.

"It's not fruitless I am just evening up the score you know exactly where mine is I'm going to find out where yours are and I don't believe for a second there's only one no one has only one!"

So now what do I do? Any bright ideas? If you were me stuck in a car in the pitch dark with a forest phobic now surrounded by trees that you happened to be in love with what would you do? Umm this could get awkward, very awkward.

It was worth coming home early just to see the look on your face when she kissed him. I've never seen you so surprised you didn't even react with that much shock when I kissed you for the first time.

"Stop laughing it's not funny just get rid of it. If you love me you'll get rid of it instead of turning my actual real phobia into a joke."

Gerry see's something he shouldn't can Sandra convince him he's completely misunderstood things?

My time has passed, my moment lost and now I'll spend my life rejecting second best in favour of memories of you. My goddess, my one true love, the holder of my heart, now and forever.

With him I never have to pretend. I never have to fear the ridicule of showing weakness because he loves me. All of me and that means I can give free expression to this side of me that allows the rest to carry on.

However much we both know it's wrong, however much we both sometimes wish we didn't need each other so much, however much we both know our love is forbidden on so many levels we will never be able to resist.

When I touch them I want it to be you I'm touching. When I close my eyes and kiss them in my mind it's your lips caressing mine, your arms around my neck, your body melting into mine. No one can compete with you and no one ever has since the day I first laid eyes on you.

Most importantly though he can never tell me how to carry on, be the person I am now, when the core of what makes me that person is gone forever. When the hope of love that was never going to be has walked out the door with him.

You're a good person and a great friend so don't lose faith in yourself just because you trusted someone you believed was your friend.

"Don't push your luck Sergeant or you won't be spending the night with anyone. I hear vice are looking for someone to do surveillance overnight, one call from me and all you'll be seeing tonight is the inside of a surveillance van."

One vow broken, another made. One that could and would lead them so close to the sun at times they felt the heat of it threaten to melt the wax holding their new found love together. Yet as fingers touch over the space between them no risk seems too great to call "Icarus" and give in yet again.

It may have been a slow torturous goodbye but it's still an ending. An ending to the one thing I thought would last forever, how wrong could I be?

He knows I won't say it, it's an endless game we play one where slow sensual torture is the forfeit and the reward all in one

Minutes feel like hours right now as I lie in bed my hand resting on the pillow were your head should be but it is cold and empty just like that feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I know my soul, my heart, my world is forever his, my very own captain outstanding the superhero who saved me and continues to save me in little ways every day.

Sunday snuggles are the perfect way to end the week, they are the perfect way to set my heart soaring ready for another week and they are the thing that keeps going as that week progresses because I know with him at my side and afternoons like this to look forward to I can face anything.

Gerry thinks Sandra's about to make a big mistake so he has to intervene

It's exactly the sort of place I can imagine spending lazy days with him until it's time to come back to the reality and start our lives together properly.

We know it but sometimes we both need to hear those magic words, we need to hear each other say we're not going anywhere, we need to be reminded of one things and one thing only, we're both here for the long haul, we're both here to stay.

From now on I'll keep a closer eye on all three of my boys, after all that's what families do and we are defiantly that, one little, odd, dysfunctional, loving family.

I could very easily get very easily get used to this being waited on hand and foot and if they would always get breakthroughs like this one when I'm not around may I could get used to taking more sick days after all.

Whatever Fred Blackledge might like to think I know how perfect tonight will be and the fact that he'd been part of the reason its happening would make him furious! I may just have to make a point of thanking him someday.

You are my someone, the someone I waited all my life for, the someone who makes me feel like anything is possible and most of all the someone I love more than life itself.

She didn't get the chance to look back in hindsight a decade later and see that her punishment was the best thing that ever happened to her.

Sandra's missing can the boys work out who's taken her and get her back before it's too late.

You are all I need to make me feel complete and you are my love, my valentine, the holder of my heart and the man who completes me every day.

Everything I am now is tied up in her, she's become my life my love for her is like food and water to me and without it I would die just as surely as I would from hunger or thirst.

"You're welcome but like I said I'm not finished making it a birthday you'll never forget yet."

The dim light cast from the moon shining through the gap in the curtains baths the bed casting golden shadows over our bodies giving them that mystical enchanted shimmer that encapsulates the magic coming to a head between us.

Until recently a bubble bath to me was something women had when men had pissed them off but now it's one of my favourite ways to spend the evening.

As you smile at me again and now we've both stepped onto the rollercoaster again and I say a silent prayer that this time the ride won't be so terrifying and won't come to such an abrupt end.

He tells himself he'll end the torture, stop giving in to his need for her and accept a life together is as far away as it ever was. As he hears his own laughter echo around the night sky however he knows he could no more give up her than he could give up breathing.

Sandra sets out to get over Gerry but it all goes a little wrong or should that be right?

"No but then that's because I do it every year so the problem never arises!"

"My god Gerry is there no lengths you won't go to in an effort to prove you're point?"

From the grave series story 4 Another letter arrives from Jack from beyond the grave this time to Esther

It's team game night let the fun begin

Just for you…..I want to be everything you believe I am ….

Sandra's world is falling apart as she thinks about her father and the shattered illusions she now has

Who knew playing mastermind could be so much fun

Sometimes it's hard to find the words to tell someone you love how beautiful they are

A bump on the head leads to a startling admission

A game makes for an interesting new year for Sandra and Gerry

Something special begins at christmas

Sandra thinks about how she feels about Gerry and how much she wishes she had the courage to tell him

Brian get a warning from Jack- From the grae story 3

Gerry is feeling very un-festive can three "ghostly" visits change his mind about how he spends the Christmas holidays?

Someone else receives a letter from Jack and this time it calls for action!

A visit to the optician makes Sadnra feel old, Robert reassures her she's no such thing

Jack has passed away but he's left Sandra some final words of advice

Sandra and Gerry celebrate a special day with a special picnic

Kitty Campbell gives the who team something to think about and night celebrating with Esther gives Sandra something to think about.

As Sandra's world shatters around her can Robert be there to pick up the pieces and put her back together again?

Sandra decides to show Gerry just how easy it is for him to talk about his feelings in the right circumstances!

Sandra has finally had enough of Strickland playing politics with her team after the visit from him and Rossa and he has to prove that he understands. Sandra /Strickland pairing from Sandra's POV.

Sadnra is away at a conference and missing someone special. Rated M for sexual content so if it's not your thing stop now!

What exactly happened int he hours prior to the boys 7am visit to Sandra's?

Short fluffy Sandra/Gerry piece from Gerry's POV, words from Evergreen by Will Young

Can Sandra and Grace's relationship ever be mended and can anyone help if it can?

Robert thinks about his feelings for Sandra as the band strikes up and the annual police officers ball.