Last edited in December 7th, 2019

"I am a depressed banana."

My previous name is Morte-Hourglass. Morte is what I go by nowadays. Usually I would introduce myself as an undergrad, but I've graduated and survive three jobs with shitty bosses. So this is who I am; an overworked, under-appreciated, and underpaid office lady who just wants to have a good time. And by good time, I mean reading gay fanfic in peace or play video games.

If you want to know more about me, you can follow me on Twitter @MorteHourglass. I'm most active in Facebook and twitter, so you can DM me. Though I respond only by my own judgement of you. Don't take it personally, a woman needs to be cautious and a nerd needs their peaceful fangirling.

My OTPs and fandoms:

1. Kaito x Shinichi/Kid x Conan (Detective Conan) Because the thought of a thief stealing the detective's heart is not a common theme and the concept of forbidden love is my aesthetic. Besides, ShinRan and KaiAo are too mainstream anyway
2. Kanou x Ayase (Okane ga Nai) The first rated M yaoi manga that I read and I absolutely love these two to death, even though I feel related to Kuba Homare. I also can’t believe that cute boy like Ayase could have so many admirers, it's very unreal. Good thing Kanou was there to protect him.
3. Kurogane x Fai (Tsubasa Chronicles) I think everybody would be frustrated by the way they're dancing around each other but never quite touching.
4. Sebastian x Ciel (Kuroshitsuji/ Black Butler) because no heart of a girl could resist their charms. And because there are so many fan-service.
5. Germany x Italy (Hetalia Axis Powers) I love the way Italy doesn't quite realize that he has Germany wrapped around his little finger, and I love the fact that Germany knows, but he doesn't really mind either.
6. US x UK (Hetalia Axis Powers) Because sometimes, all you need is a healthy dose of incest to brighten your day. So many things can be done with this ship and so many doujins to pick from.
7. Spain x Romano (Hetalia Axis Powers) I envy Romano sometimes, because it's not everyday you can find a lover who can understand everything about you and still accepts you anyway.
8. Toothless x Hiccup (How to Train Your Dragon) Because they have more chemistry than HiccStrid and if Toothless were a boy, I would bet he would be very cool and very cute altogether.
9. Satoshi x Daisuke (D.N.Angel) No reason. I just never knew that I liked shota before I saw them together.
10. France x UK (Hetalia Axis Powers) I'd to imagine that France is secretly having a crush towards England, and that's the reason why he's bothering him so much.
11. Russia x China (Hetalia Axis Powers) I love how China looks so small and feminine beside the tall and intimidating Russia. I liked to imagine that Russia is overprotective of him because he is physically small and they get along well because they both have wide lands.
12. Doumeki x Watanuki (xxxHolic) Because Watanuki is a tsundere and Doumeki is a kuudere. A very odd relationship is formed between the two, but I'm sure that they are actually care towards each other a lot. They just showed it in very different ways.
13. Nezumi x Shion (No. 6) They are a very sincere couple that touched my heart. Shion is a very innocent person who sees the brightness of everything, while Nezumi is just a survivor who wants to keep that innocence intact, even if he had to lie to him.
14. Seishirou x Subaru (Tokyo Babylon) Although I never personally read or watched Tokyo Babylon myself, some of the fanfictions did them justice. This sick couple is my new aesthetic for fictional couple. Not my ideal view for a real healthy relationship, of course. But somehow CLAMP managed to make the readers sympathized with them; not just with Subaru but also with Seishirou, the number one antagonist. It's hard to sympathize with antagonists so I have to give CLAMP points for that. (I wish I have the determination to read X/1999 just for the sake of Fuuma x Kamui, but my heart wouldn't be able to take it)
15. Touya x Yukito (Cardcaptor Sakura) When I watched CCS when I was six or seven years old, I never suspected anything between Touya and Yuki and just assumed that they are very good friends. Oh, how wrong I was when I reread the series a few months ago. CLAMP literally filled the manga with BL scenes between Touya and Yukito. They even made an official confession (albeit indirectly) out of Yukito that he loves Touya. I will never look at CCS the same way ever again.
16. Rikuou x Kazahaya (Drug Drop/Legal Drug) I read this manga just a few months ago, a bit later after rereading CCS. I can see why people are shipping these two. The manga is filled with cross-dressing Kazahaya and Rikuou teasing him relentlessly. But I can't help but noticing that the manga is filled with the same elements that would make XXXHolic. Perhaps it was an earlier idea before letting it simmer and become XXXHolic and that's why it was temporarily dropped? I don't know. I knew that it was only recently remade and continued again though, because the art-style in the latest chapters are similar to Tsubasa Chronicles and Gate 7, while the earlier style greatly resembling Tokyo Babylon and X/1999.
17. Viktor x Yuuri (Yuri!!! on Ice) I'm sure these two are everyone's favorite couple. Sixty years from now, everyone will call them the ship of dreams!
18. Otabek x Yuri (Yuri!!! on Ice) Don't be fooled. This Yuri is not the same Yuuri I just mentioned. Their relationship mellowed Yuri down and softened Otabek. These two are perfect for each other.
19. Katsuki x Izuku (Boku no Hero Academia) While this pairing is certainly unconventional, I feel like they are are two sides of the same coin. I am most interested in Katsuki's growth from a petty bully to a great hero, and of course, I feel like Izuku will be a great part of of Katsuki identity as both hero and friend/partner(/romantic interest?). Also, a lot of angst chance in this pairing. Me likey some angsty.
20. Sherlock x John (Sherlock BBC) So uh... yeah. I like top Sherlock and bottom John. Who doesn't love seeing our favorite detective being soft only towards our favorite doctor/blogger? And who else thought John needs to be coddled and spoiled because he is such a sweetheart who has suffered enough? I certainly do.

It will increase in number.

Please note that I still cannot write yaoi stories comfortably. I can read them (even the MA rated) but writing them is another story entirely. I am still an adult woman with healthy hormones and I still projecting myself into the stories I write. Therefore, for the time being I will only write yaoi stories by genderbent the ukes into women while the semes are men. I am terribly sorry if this bothers you or if you think this is sexist (it is not my intention), but I still cannot feel comfortable writing two men kissing (or bed each other). I am not saying that men cannot bed each other--they can, I just don't want to write any details about it. Generally, I'm still only comfortable reading smut, not writing them. Perhaps one day I will be comfortable enough to write a real BL stories; who knows.

December 7th, 2019

HAPPY CHRISTMAS 2019 AND MERRY NEW YEAR 2020

I'm still alive. Thank you for asking.

I was in a bad place last year. It was my first job and it was hell. I'm in better place now, closer to home and familiar, and I'm not alone.

I have a job, even though I haven't been given anything to do besides studying taxation, so I will still have proper income. And because I still don't have anything to do, I can regularly write, in my office. But don't expect regular updates. It will be sporadic since I still needed to edit my work, then reedit, then read again, scrapping them if I have to, then write them all over again, rinse and repeat.

Anyway, thank you for your concerned messages, asking if I will update my works. The answer is... I'm not sure.

How To Be A Dragon's Hoard was something I started out of whim, and I don't even have anything solid on it to work on, so I honestly don't think I can ever write anything on that one ever again. I'm sorry.

Mostly I'll be working on Crescent Moon since it was the only thing solid enough that I have to write on. It's not much, but I can work with it. The setting and universe was heavily based on FFXV, with magic thrives together with technology. That's why you have Harry Potter-esque Magic Academy, together with cars, smartphones, wifi and satelite signals. I will give some picture about my universe sometimes. But for now, I have to build a solid foundation for Kaito's and Shin'ichi's relationship in order for it to flourish. So stay tune for it, folks.

Anyway, thank you for not giving up on me.

Or maybe you did, but I didn't need to know that.

I'll continued writing from where I've left off.

Regards,

Morte-tan