Saturday, July 4, 2020
An Apology to My Readers: Delays

I wanted to let everyone know that I fully intend to finish my stories, but over the past few days I just haven’t had any will to write. Unfortunately, I am afraid. I’m afraid for my life. I’m afraid for my family. I’m afraid for my town. I’m afraid for my state, and for my country. I live in constant fear, and it hasn’t been helping me find inspiration. It’s been tearing me apart.

I have asthma, or more specifically severe allergies to perfumes and chemicals that react like asthma. This means that I am more likely to have a severe reaction if I come into contact with Covid-19. Comorbidity. You see that word and all you can think is that this is a death sentence. I have left the house three times since early February. Each time I come back and worry for the next several days that I’ve somehow been exposed. Except, my husband is a necessary worker and went to his job every day through the lockdown and continues to go now when the country is reopening too soon and there are thousands dying.

Worse, I have a son in the marines, and he doesn’t always have time to contact his worried mother. I’ve always been a worrier, but never like this before. I wish I could tell you why I am so afraid, but I don’t even know myself. I’m not afraid to die, I suppose, but I don’t want to go out struggling for days, maybe weeks, without enough air. That sounds horrible to me.

So I haven’t been able to write. I haven’t been able to find the hopeful part of me that never writes an unhappy ending. The part that believes there will always be another miracle. The piece of me that thinks everything will work out if you just do your best. How can I, when all around me thousands of people are dying and many of those deaths could have been avoided if people had common decency.

For all those people out there who think a mask is a political statement, please stop. It doesn’t mean you support the democrats. It means we want to live. I am horrified that you could play Russian roulette on not just your life, and the lives of your parents, siblings, spouse, children, and grandchildren, but on MY life, and the lives of MY husband, my son, my nieces and nephews, my sisters and brothers, my mothers and fathers, my grandparents, my friends, and my neighbors. Please stop thinking just because you might survive it, that everyone else will. Some of us won’t.

Be a hero, wear a mask.

Social distancing, proper safety precautions, and wearing masks shouldn’t be political. Stop listening to ANYONE who says it is. Keep your politics away from my immune system. At least let me have the RIGHT to live. That’s all I can ask of anyone.

So no, I haven’t been writing, and I haven’t been responding to emails, because how can I have hope if the very people my town needs to survive are ignoring that we have to live and are refusing to social distance, refusing to wear masks, refusing to remember that people live here all the time. They hear people say we had no cases in our area, so they come in droves, bringing it from outside. My community is almost HALF senior citizens, and the rest of us are made up of couples and young families.

I want to live long enough to meet my own future grandchildren. I want to live long enough to walk the Appalachian Trail, and to see the rest of my beautiful country. I want to live long enough to publish my novels and see them sell millions of copies. I want to live long enough to accomplish my dreams.

Sailor Moon is the type of hero we really need right now, and I so wish that I could sit down and give you a story with her hopeful tone and her joyful light, but I can’t. Right now I would put her on a mission of vengeance, and that isn’t my Sailor Moon. My Sailor Moon always does what is right, even when it’s hard, even when it hurts, even when it means she will lose, because she is the true hero, who refuses to give in, or to give up. My Sailor Moon could never be turned dark because there isn’t a scrap of darkness in her. She has everything she could ever want or need. She is a good daughter and tries to obey her parents and do what they’ve taught her. She is truth and hope and unconditional love.

Sailor Moon would wear a mask. She would wear that mask and walk right out into the middle of town and she would stand up for those of us who need someone to hear us. Not just those with compromised immune systems, but those who have been treated badly for centuries, for the ones who need a place to flee because they don’t have a home anymore due to war or terror. Sailor Moon would love the way we need a hero to love. She would show us that anyone can change, that any heart could be healed, and that any barrier can be breached with a hand outstretched, with love, with friendship, with faith.

Unfortunately, that isn’t the world we live in. It isn’t the world around me right now. I live in a world where a man drove into a grocery store parking lot in MAINE with a rebel flag proudly displayed on his back window... who walked into the grocery store full of necessary workers and refused to wear a mask because it was his ‘right’ to make a political statement. I live in a world where people think it’s perfectly fine to treat others like their lives are meaningless, and where those who are the most necessary workers among the population are often paid the least. Where they can’t afford to stop working even to protect their families because they don’t have that nest egg of savings that those who have more had. I live in a world where people are being evicted from their homes for not paying rent they couldn’t meet because they weren’t ‘essential workers.’

Find me hope and I think I would write a million stories in a day, but I have none. Not when the man who is my president is drawing crowds of unmasked people together and those people then go and infect other people. Meanwhile people who are trying to stay safe are treated like they are making a political statement.

Be a hero, wear a mask.

I’m living in a world where I am afraid to let people into my home for fear they might have Covid. A world where I’m afraid to go out with my sister-in-law to the grocery store... and after the one trip I took with her I panicked for days. Where going out with my husband makes me terrified because someone coughed near me and wasn’t wearing a mask. Where walking into a bookstore means a handful of hand-sanitizer to protect the elderly couple who work there and I still have to listen to people treat them rudely, then force their way past me out the door and ignore the fact that using a walker means it’s more difficult for me.

I want to live in Sailor Moon’s world, where an entire community would come together to tell the military to leave them alone. Where Sailor Moon can take the hand of her enemy and remind them how to be human. I want to live there, where magic could fix a pandemic, and there is always someone there to take your hand when you’re afraid and you wouldn’t be afraid to reach back.

Bring me some hope and I’ll show you my dreams for a world like Sailor Moon’s. But until then my pen is down. My torch is out. My muse is huddled in a corner unable to come out because she’s me, and she is afraid to die like this. Bring me some hope, please. Tell me everything is going to be okay, because right now, I don’t think it will be. Even after this disease goes away, there is still so much hate and so little empathy. I don’t think we will get through this. Bring me some hope.

Be a hero, wear a mask.

About the Author:
I am married, and I have a grown son who is a Marine! (GULP) I am an avid reader and writer. I have been writing since I was about twelve (will turn 37 on June 9!), and I will continue until the day I die. I have published a few books IRL, mostly poetry.

Also, I am currently writing a romance series about shifter dragons. That may make updates for my stories here a little slower, but hopefully people will enjoy what I am doing there and want to read them!

Blog: https:///blog/sailorsilverladybug

I have started a blog just for fanfiction writing on Tumblr. The link is above! I will try to post a bit about myself, upcoming stories, and characters development. I am very excited about it!

Author's Update: (Only currently in progress or need-to-know updates will be shown)

5-28-20: Several stories have been moved into my one-shots series Twisted Tales and Consequences. If at any time one of my stories appears to go missing, it is likely they are in those sections, or in one of the others. Also, I am going to be reposting a few crossovers that I started a few years ago soon, and my secret project will be out by June 9, even if only two or three chapters are finished.

1-25-20: I am going to work through all of my stories and change the ages of any where the girls are under sixteen (where the soul-bonding or any lemon is involved). I had a long discussion about this with fellow authors and I feel it will not only make me feel more comfortable, but also my readers.
I am also making the entire Dark Endymion Series into a second version geared more towards teens that will have NO details on the attack and no actual lemons (just hints of them).

1-15-20: I am working on a secret project. After all my open stories are updated I intend to finish the first five chapters of this project before posting. After readers have seen them I will decide whether to continue based on reviews.

12-8-19: I am reorganizing my One Shots... M Requests will now be listed under Twisted Tales. Some stories have been removed from that section and added into my Consequences series.

Sailor Moon Series in Order:
* indicates an unfinished story.

Let Her Fall Series
1. Let Her Fall In Love With Me
2. Pretty Guardians Go to Hogwarts
3. Darkness Falls

Dark Endymion Series
0.5. Silver Tears
1. Dark Endymion Takes Usagi
2. Black Moon Enemies
3. Makaiju
4. Shadows of Destruction

One Month Series
1. Trapped
2. What If?
3. Timelines Altered
4. Alone Together

Holiday Series
1. Sanctuary: A Christmas Story
2. Resolve: A New Year's Story
3. Devotion: A Valentine's Story
4. Reverence: An Easter Story
5. Dedication: A Mother's and Father's Day Story
6. Festivity: An August Vacation Story

Losing Control Series
1. Losing Control
2. To Save The World

Kidnapping Series
1. Kidnapping Sailor Moon
2. Battleground Earth

On Her Own Series
1. On Her Own
2. On Their Own

A WISH Series
1. A WISH
2. A HOPE

Single Book Stories:
Complete:
The Meaning of Love: A Story From Beginning to End (K rated)
The Prison (M Rated)
To Stand Alone (T Rated)
Sailor Who - A crossover story (K rated)
Incomplete:
*Unknown Force: Quest for the Crystals (M rated)
*Dear Diary: Sailor Moon's Horrifying Adventures (M rated)
*Forever Starts Day One (M rated)
*Destined Love: It Takes Two to Tango (M rated)
*Don't Push Me: A New Take on Sailor Moon R (M rated)
*Back at the Beginning: A Second Chance (T Rated)
*True Love's Kiss (T rated)

One Shot Series:
(All chapters in these are complete stories)
Love Shots (K rated) - 15 stories
Identities Revealed (T rated) - 11 stories
Consequences (M rated) - 12 stories
Twisted Tales (M rated) - 3 stories

Wheel of Time Series Stories

One Shot Series:
Nynaeve's Blush (T rated)

My Standard Disclaimer:
I don't own any of them... I don't get paid for any of the works on this site. I am simply here to write stories that will be enjoyed, and to better my abilities as an author, and because I just love to write. My favorites include: Sailor Moon; Doctor Who; Charmed; Harry Potter; Twilight. I am writing cross-fiction.

Requests: REQUESTS ARE ON HOLD FOR THE MOMENT - I am taking them, but I have to finish some of my other projects first.
I generally try not to do break-ups because they are very difficult and depressing to write. I won't write a cheating fanfiction. I'm not up to writing threesomes, which I know will disappoint some people, but it's just not my style.
I WILL NOT be involved in anything that deals with murder or physical torture. Non-canon character deaths are not spoken of in great detail, and are generally caused by Youma (SM), or another force I consider to be evil, or by an accident of some sort. Canon character deaths... usually done through evil.
Other tough topics such as sexual assault, domestic violence, or child abuse are very touchy subjects for me. The story requested must have a positive outcome, and I will not make those things into something fun or shiny or pretty. Those stories are as hard for people to read as they are for me to write, so there will be trigger warnings on them. Any other topics are on a case by case basis.

About My Writing:
My characters are not perfect people. I write characters that don't always think before they act. I write characters who think, but then ignore their own conscience. I write characters who love too much, or who hate. But the one thing about my characters that I always love is that they grow and change. Yes they are flawed, but they are HUMAN in spite of any powers or circumstances. That's what makes a great story. The flaws and humanity.
Some of my writing is dark. I use my own history to express things the characters endure, so I am writing what I know... my personal Youma are metaphorical. Unfortunately I have experience with SA, so I'm afraid this will figure into my stories. I WILL post trigger warnings for those subjects that may negatively affect certain readers. I think that it is important to have some idea what you are getting into.
I also tend to write a lot of :AHEM: adult material. A lot of that is just because it's fun, though some is by request. Some of the things I write include much detail that is not suitable for younger readers. If I rate T then there are only hints of contact, no detail. Finally... Pregnancy features heavily in a lot of my writing. I enjoy the ups and downs of it, and because I have my own *blush* fetish, I like writing about how people get that way. Especially when the guy decides it's time. I know... Weird right? LOL.
I will always write happy endings for all the girls and guys. Not changing it. Not feeling bad about it. I think everyone deserves to be happy.

Reviews:
How to get what you want out of a story.
First, the review:
A good review highlights the good as well as the bad.
When I write a review and there is something that needs to be corrected, I talk about the thing I found most positive. I then give the correction. Finally I include another positive. Because a spoonful of sugar really does help us take the bitter lumps.
Second, other options:
I often ask my readers for their opinions, and in that context it is perfectly acceptable to voice your opinion. I ask about things like pairings, whether to save certain characters, or how people want me to address certain issues. Many of those things have been dealt with already, but if I ask, please, let me know what you think. I enjoy hearing everyone's opinions!
If you have a request for another story, I'm generally willing to try, and I work with the requester to make it enjoyable. So, if you want a story, ask. I have certain things I wont do, but I am always willing to suggest another author I think could do it.
I just want to point out that there is another option. Create an account. Start writing your own stories. And do them the way you want them. People here are more than willing to beta. Heck I beta for eight people. I rather enjoy it because I get the first peek at new stories. Plus I get to help other people become better authors. So if you want to write and you need a beta. Join. Ask for help.
Third, a reminder:
Let me just make this clear. NONE of the authors on this site get paid for sharing with you. They work their butts off to write these stories in the hopes of making people smile, getting to be better authors, and because they enjoy it. Many take a very long time to write a single chapter. Mine are pretty quick, I know. It takes me between one and six hours per chapter before editing. But I know of others who might take weeks on a single chapter because they have less time to devote to it, or they don't type as fast, or they are more hesitant.
Always keep in mind that the author has feelings and motivations you may not understand. They might be very hurt by a review you write, and unfortunately, a few have quit writing altogether. So remember that if you don't like a story you can stop reading it. If you don't care for a particular author, don't read their work. But always remember that once words are spoken (or written) they cannot be taken back. There is a difference between constructive criticism and abusive talk.

Canon Characters:

Royals:
Tsukino Usagi (Sailor Moon)
Chiba Mamoru (Tuxedo Kamen)
Chiba Usagi - Chibi Usa (Chibi Moon)

Inner Senshi:
Mizuno Ami (Sailor Mercury
Hino Rei (Sailor Mars)
Kino Makoto (Sailor Jupiter)
Aino Minako (Sailor Venus)

Shitennou:
Sasake Zoicite (South)
Sasake Jadeite (West)
Yoshida Nephrite (East)
Ine Kunzite(North)

Outer Senshi
Kaiou Michiru (Sailor Neptune)
Ten’ou Haruka (Sailor Uranus)
Meiou Setsuna (Sailor Pluto)
Tomae Hotaru (Sailor Saturn)

Other Heroes:
Princess Kakyuu
Seiya (Sailor Star Fighter)
Yaten
Taiki

Altered Charcters:

Tsukino Shingo (Blue Moon Knight)
- Protector of the Blue Moon Crystal; Similar Abilities to his sister, Sailor Moon
Furuhata Motoki
- Empath (also projects feelings)
Nishimura Reika
- Clairvoyant (postcog)
Osaka Naru
- Empath (Ability to sense the powers of others)
Umino Guiro
- Clairvoyant (precog) ability to influence future events
Haruna Sakurada
- Clairvoyant - Ability to sense the needs of others (untrained)
Furuhata Unazuki
- Telepathy - Ability to hear what others are thinking (self-trained)

Saved Enemy Turned Heroes

Dark Kingdom (Negaverse) Arc:
Beryl

Doom Tree Arc:
Ail (Seijoru)
An (Natsume)

Promise of the Rose (MOVIE):
Fiore (*Tomatsu)

Black Moon Clan (Negamoon/Nemesis) Arc:
Berthier (Rain Warrior)
Calaveras (Light Warrior)
Petz (Thunder Warrior)
Saphir (Blue Warrior)
Rubeus (Red Warrior)
Esmeraude (Green Warrior)
Prince Dimande (White Warrior)

Hearts in Ice (MOVIE):

Death Busters Arc:

Black Dream Hole (MOVIE):
Badiane
Poupelin
Peruru

Dead Moon Circus Arc:

Sailor Wars Arc:

Others will be listed as I reach those Arcs.*

Created Characters:
(can be used with permission)

Teens/Young Adults:
Kazuo Haruki (Sun Knight)
- Red hair, Green eyes
- Tunic of golds, reds, oranges, green pants
- laughing and happy, similar in attitude to Usagi and Motoki
- Protector of the sun.
- Leader of the Hogosha

Kaji Agate (Pure Light Knight)
"Dark General Agate"
- Red hair, red eyes
- Can sense Crystal Energy and was meant to be their guardian until they came into their power; attacks derived from the earth and the moon
- Twisted into believing his sister's lies that Serenity stole Endymion using magic... Basis of the Greek myth. If freed from dark energy his spells are pure white light and derived from earth and moon.

Paden Maclean (Animalis Knight)
- purple hair and eyes
- Animal energy, manipulation of animals; extreme strength

Bane Jameson (New Life Knight)
- Earth Energy; Rain; New Life
- Bright green hair and eyes that are green with silver irises, wears a mint green uniform edged with darker green. Carries a spear that disappears into a fan. No armor.
- Taken from America more than twenty years before the Shitennou were kidnapped and later put into the endless slumber. In some stories he is rescued, in others he is woken when the Shitennou are saved.

Veronica Hartman - Ronnie (Pegasia Warrior)
- Brown hair; eyes
- Metal Energy/manipulation of metals
- Quiet and fearful, afraid of attack and a frequent victim of the Negaverse
- Long black pants and a halter-top shirt that is all silver. Long gloves, silver and black, a tiara with a hematite stone in the center, choker has a hematite star.

De'Shaun Allen (Metallurgy Knight)
- Metal Energy/manipulation of metals
- Leaves his family on the Marine base in Okinawa to keep them safe. His mother is Lilly, a Marine. His father is Darnell, also a Marine. He has two sisters, Stacia(7), and Ava(8) as well as a brother Jerome(11).

Children:
Chiba Mamoru - Chibi Mamo (Chibi Kamen)
- Surprise Twin in my stories to Chibi-Usa
- Dressed Much Like his father - But In Charcoal Grey
- Purple/Black Hair - Purple Eyes - Slim
- Quiet like his father, tends to be a bit shy

Chiba Tentomushi (Sailor Ladybug)
- Red hair and blue eyes, pale skin, a few freckles.
- White, red, and black fuku with red wings and skirt that have black spots like a ladybug. Black and red scepter with the crescent moon. Hair has odangoes, but it mostly down.
- Sweet and gentle, but also powerful and temperamental

Kaneko Takeo (Golden Warrior)
- Does not know he was sent to earth from a distant galaxy just before it was destroyed
- Gold Tunic - Blue Pants - Plate Armor of same colors appear in battle - Sword, golden boots
- Golden Blonde Hair - Sky Blue Eyes
- Sweet, a bit clingy with Rei and Jadeite (Adoptive Parents) quickly learns fire reading, gentle, adores Tentomushi

Miyamoto Yuzuki (Far Moon Warrior)
- Parents fought off a Youma, but were more susceptible to the draining effects of it. Sailor Moon asked to protect her.
- Red hair, pale skin - green eyes.
- Silver-white leggings, flowing silver-white top with red trim and red bow on back, red choker and belt with red crescent moons on them and on golden tiara, crystal and red scepter with red crescent moons. Red boots
- Sad, but kind, very like Usagi, adopted by Setsuna and Haruki.

Kazuo Heliodor (Sailor Sunrise)
Princess "Dark General Heliodor"
- red hair and green eyes.
- the future daughter of Haruki and Setsuna, kidnapped as an infant and raised as Queen Beryl's daughter.
- She created the Youma Dragon Fire Opal, who is loyal to only her.

Kazuo Chiyoko (Time Daughter)

Ine Minto-Asahi (Morning Light Knight)
- Called Asahi.
- He has silver hair and Azure eyes. Trained to be deadly with a sword by his father and uncles.
- Son of Kunzite and Minako. He is the soulmate of Heliodor. In some stories he will come back to the past in search of her.
- Tends to be a bit bossy, but loving and kind, serious, but able to laugh, and young children are drawn to him. Has a sweet and romantic side, but is extremely overprotective.

Yoshida Mako (Chibi Jupiter)

Guides:
Manno
- Luna and Artemis' Son, twin to Diana

In Elysion:
Yume - The Priest
Maboroshi - The Priestess
Helios - Future priest
Wala - Future Priestess
Áine - Future Priestess
Ayumu - Former Priest

Shared Created Characters
Astraearose-silvermoon's creations

Children:
Tsukino ne' Gem Angharad (Sailor Titan)
Tsukino Zita-Kurai (Sailor Purple Moon)

Guides:
Tsuki - Hotaru's Guide
Tomatsu - Shingo's Guide

Supporting Characters
(* means created character)

Tsukino Ikuko - Usagi’s Mom
Tsukino Kenji -Usagi’s Dad
Grandfather Hino - Runs Hikawah Shrine, Rei’s Grandfather
Mizuno Saeko - Ami’s Mother, doctor
Osaka Nozomi - Naru's Mother
*Osaka Mayumi - Mamoru's Favorite Teacher
Haruna Sakurada - Usagi’s favorite teacher
Mian-sensei - Middle school secretary
Mayu - Hospital Nurse
*Kobayashi Akio - Lawyer
*Judge Saichirou Kei - Judge and family friend of the Tsukino's
*Officer Takahashi - Male cop; promises to keep secret
*Officer Sato - Female cop; promises to keep secret
*Aoto - Sailor Senshi Hour Host
*Yuna - Sailor Senshi Hour Host
*Miyu - Sailor Senshi Hour Host
*Yodu - Punk kid who feels entitled… rich
*Bradley - American Transfer student
*Lily - American Transfer Student
*Yukio - Classmate and gamer
Yumiko - Fellow Classmate of Usagi
Kuri - Fellow Classmate of Usagi
Kumada Yuichiro - Works at the shrine, crush on Rei
Kotono Sarashina - Fellow student of Rei’s and idolizes her
Ittou Asanuma - Friend of Makoto, sci-fi buff, Idolizes Mamoru
Momohara Momoko - 'Momo' Becomes friends with Chibi-Usa
Sarashina Kyuusuke - 'Suke' Becomes friends with Chibi-Usa
James Rynak - Abusive guy that hurt Ronnie - reborn but haven't developed the character much

Animal Guardians/Guides
(* means created character)

Luna - Usagi's Guardian/Guide - Cat from Mau
Artemis - Minako's Guardian/Guide - Cat from Mau
Diana - Chibi-Usa's Guardian/Guide - Daughter of Luna & Artemis
*Manno - Chibi-Mamo's Guardian/Guide - Son of Luna & Artemis
Phobos - Rei's Spirit guide
Deimos - Jadeite's Spirit guide
*Tsuki - Hotaru's Guide
*Tomatsu - Shingo's Guide

Pairings

Established Hero Pairings
Usagi & Mamoru
Ami & Zoicite
Rei & Jadeite
Makoto & Nephrite
Minako & Kunzite
Setsuna & Haruki
Hotaru & Shingo
Michiru & Haruka
Koan & Agate
Calaveras & Bane
Unazuki & Paden
Esmeraude & Dimande
Ronnie (Veronica) & Rubeus
Petz & Saphir
Bertheier & Yaten
Kakyuu & Seiya
Taiki & De'Shaun
Tomatsu (Fiore) & Natsume (An) & Seijoru (Ail)

Children Future Pairings
Chibi-Usa & Helios
Yuzuki & Chibi-Mamo
Tentomushi & Takeo
Heliodor & Asahi
Chibi-Mako & Peruru
Angharad & Phenakite

Supporting Character Pairings
Naru & Umino
Reika & Motoki
Luna & Artemis
Tsuki & Tomatsu
Phobos & Deimos
Dr. Tomoe Souichi & Kaorinite
Haruna Sensei & Osaka Sensei & Kobayashi Akio
Tsukino Ikuko & Tsukino Kenji
Kazuo Akiko & Kazuo Ace
Furuhata Etsuko & Furuhata Katsuo
Aika & Yuichiro

Other pairings will be listed as those stories are told.*