MUST READ!! I changed my Pen name to EternallyDrowning. I got sick of the old one. Sorry.

And, yes, I know, I haven't updated in forever. Shit has been happening and it needed to be dealt with. Also, all the stuff that I had been working on (I had a new chapter of Beware the Water) but my sister got my laptop infected beyond use, so I'm going to lose all my documents and cannot use the computer at all. I'm not sure when it will be fixed, but I am honestly trying to fix it.

Song I am currently listening to: Play With Fire by Cobra Verde

Songs I'll listen to throughout the day: Roxanne by The Police Kingdom by Dave Gahan The Tempest by Pendulum

I am a lover of JRock. ('specially the metal ones or ones with AMAZING haunty-ness)

Favorite JRock bands:

Dir en Grey (of. fucking. course.)

Girugamesh (found them, love them, spreading the love)

D'espairsRay (haunting sound, amazing vocals)

Exist Trace (Dir en Grey + D'esparisray + Female band = holy. fucking. shit.)

Buck Tick (the voice of seduction)

X-Japan/hide (Me: drooling, flailing, singing, etc. etc.)

SONGS I BELIEVE HAVE AMAZING/DEEP/EPIC LYRICS: Youth of the Nation by P.O.D. Pink Spider by hide One Voice by Billy Gilman Hurt cover by Johnny Cash, Wrong With Me by Twiztid Voices Carry by Til Tuesday, When Devils Strike SPM (more will be added later, but these are all I got off the top of my head)

Hell yeah! Name: I am what you will know as EternallyDrowning-I have no intention in telling you my real name. Why? 'Cuz my name sucks.

Gender: Female-don't try to imagine...you'll hurt your brain

State: North Dakota-way boring state

Age: Somewhere between one and one-hundred I know, big difference, but I had to give you peoples SOMETHING to do while reading this, might as well try to guess my age.

Random Fact: I have a slight case of ochlophobia/agoraphobia, which is a fear of crowds or groups of people. I don't even go to concerts. I missed Papa Roach, Lacuna Coil, Kanye West (though I wouldn't go to see him anyway), Evanescence, Larry the Cable Guy etc. Sad, I know.

QUOTES I LIKE:

And cried out to the sky cuz he was lonely and scared but only the devil responded cuz God wasn't there and right then he knew what it was to be empty and cold and so he jumped off the roof and died with no soul -Dance With the Devil by Immortal Technique

When you bury emotions like that, you're only pissing them off... making them stronger, because you're burying them alive. They dont' like that, and once day they'll make sure that you don't like it either. -Robin, the Cal Leadros series by Rob Thurman

Cal: Nice guy. Salt of the earth. The stick up the ass is just a bonus. Niko: Let us not make light of the rectally challenged. -Cal Leandros series by Rob Thurman

Abbagor: The most glorious of maniacle violence can be quelled by the dullards if their number is large enough. Cal: Score one for the dullards. -Cal Leadros series by Rob Thurman

Bang, bang, Professor. Your ass is grass. -Cal, from the Cal Leadros series by Rob Thurman

Robin: I was to be married once. Cal: Really? You? No shit? Robin: I shitteth you not.

An object in motion tends to remain in motion. It's physics, that's all. It can't be cowardice or the easy way out if it's physics -Cal, the Cal Leandros series by Rob Thurman

When it came to mathematics, there were three numerical concepts I was interested in: barely worth the time, doable, and strategic fucking retreat -Cal, the Cal Leandros series by Rob Thurman

I have people in my life, of course. Some write; some don't. Some read; some don't. Some stare vacantly into space when I talk the geeky talk and walk the geeky walk, but they make killer chocolate chip pancakes and so all is forgiven. -Rob Thurman

I wasn't gone, I was alive in my own perfect world. But in my heart, I knew it wasn't perfect. My murderer still haunted me. I waited for justice, but justice did not come... -Susie Salmon, from Lovely Bones

Morgan: I thought I was calling the office of Supreme Genius Garcia: Well, gorgeous, you've been re-routed to Too Frickin' Bad. -Morgan and Garcia, Criminal Minds

Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above. -Gia Carangi, from the movie Gia

Dear book, this is another day in my life. A life is like a book. A book is like a box. A box has six sides. Inside and outside, so, how do you get to what's inside? How do you get what's inside, out? Once upon a time, there lived a very pretty girl, who lived in a beautiful box, and everybody loved her. -Gia Carangi, from the movie Gia

When are we born? When do we die? Why are we born? Why do we die? The world has been destroyed and reborn countless times, always resurrecting from the ashes as Paradise. It has happenned before, and will happen again. An endless cycle of life and death. The world is a Paradise that was opened by someone, but this era too is almost at an end. We have aquired the means to exceed our natrual span of life, never supecting that the world itself was finite in its existance. This knowledge has left me in despair. My fate is fallen, and scattered like the petals of a dying flower; like the blast from a sandstorm, it has been worn down and whethered away. As if to be purified, the world will be encased in ice, so that it can return to the beginning once more. Paradise is a world that is opened by someone... -Darcia, from Wolf's Rain

I am not allowed to drink coffee evers since an "incident" -Amanda

The kid is tech savvy sir, but fret not. I am tech savvier. Is that a word? It sounds like a word. If it is a word, I am it. -Garcia, Criminal Minds

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain, but they're wrong. Pain is something you carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the expericne of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are part of you; your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide from them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain -Jim Morrison

Why is everyone trying to kill me today? -Elle

The world where you will go hand in hand with the flower maiden has neither perfect happiness nor joy nor life. This is because it also does not contain perfect sadness, nor misery, nor death -Darcia, from Wolf's Rain

There's a special rung in hell reserved for people who waste good scotch. -Lt. Archie Hicox, from Inglourious Basterds

The dog's got the hunter, and the hunter's got the gun. BAM! Elimination, a lack of education -Big Mama, Fox and the Hound

It's not your enemy who gets you, it's always your own people. -Scarface, from the song In Between Us.

It's a big rock. I can't wait to tell my friends. They don't have a rock this big -Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

The brocolli must DIE! Stewie Griffin, Family Guy

See that atitude right there! That's why I always got the extra cookie -Dean, Supernatural

I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it -Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Duuuude! You FUGLY! Dean, Supernatural

Sunneydale, a place which has witnessed some spectaculare kickings of my ass -Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

We like to talk big...vampires do. "I'm going to destroy the world." That's just tough-guy talk. Strutting around with your friends over a pint of blood. The truth is, I like this world. You've got...dog racing, Manchester United, and you've got people. Billions of people walking around like Happy Meals with legs! -Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

I have loved to the point of madness; That which is called madness, That which to me, Is the only sensible way to love. -Francios Sagan

I'm living but I'm feeling numb; can see it in my stare. I wear a mask, so falsely numb, and I don't know who I am -Tarantula, This Mortal Coil

Decisions lie with stupid men -Tarantula, This Mortal Coil

Beast Boy: See, it all started back in 1492 with this tea party, in Boston. King George, or maybe it was King Norm -anyway... The British were trying to make the colonists drink all this tea. But they were like, "Dude! No way! We're sick of your nasty old tea and your crummy English muffins!" So they decided, REVOLUTION!
Raven: Where'd you learn your history? A cereal box?
Beast Boy: What's your point? -Beast Boy and Raven, Teen Titans (come on, you know you loved them too!)

Weird is good, strange is bad, and odd is when you don't know which to call someone. Weird is the same as different, which is the same as unique, than weird is good. If you are weird and proud of it, copy this onto your profile!

If you have ever been so obsessed with something that now everyone is scared of you because of its effects copy this into your profile

If you're one of those people who get excited when you see just two reviews, paste this into your profile.

Ninety-five percent of teenagers are concerned about being popular. If you are one of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile.

98 percent of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2 percent who hasn't, copy and paste this in your profile.

92 percent of teenagers would die if Abercrombie and Fitch told them it wasn't cool to breathe. Put this in your profile if you would be part of the 8 percent laughing your ass off.

Almond chocolate milk tastes good. People call me crazy, but I'm just random! If you're random and proud of it, copy and paste this in your profile!

Chocolate chip cookies are the best!! If you agree, copy and paste this into your profile!!

98 of teenagers do drugs, have sex, and drink alcohol...put this in your profile if you like chocolate chip cookies

If you've ever had a mad laughing fit for no reason, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you've ever copied and pasted something onto your profile, copy and paste this onto your profile. Oh the ironie...

If you ever forgotten what you were talking about in a conversation copy and paste this into your profile.

If you're hyper, like being hyper, and are hyper all the time, COPY THIS INTO YOUR PROFILE!

If you are obsessed with fanfiction copy this into your profile.

If you are addicted to ninjas and would like to become one, post this onto your profile.

If you are addicted to vampires and would like to become one, post this onto your profile.

If you have your own little world, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you're a proud stalker and obsessed love-struck girl of Deidara the S-Ranked missing nin of Iwagakure no sato, copy this into your profile.

If you are weird, insane, crazy, odd, not-normal, a freak of nature, psychotic, random or anything similiar, copy this into your profile.

If you have ever run into a door, copy this into your profile.

If you have ever run into a tree, copy this to your profile

If you have ever tripped over your own feet, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you have ever fallen up stairs, copy this onto your profile.

If your profile is long, add this to your profile to make it longer.

PLEASE READ WHAT'S UNDER THIS!!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it

Here are some Add-Your-Name-To-The-List things

If you've been on the computer for hours on end, reading numerous fanfictions, copy this onto your profile, and add your name to this list: danyan, Zutara Lover, Black'n'red'Butterfly, Enrica,I'veComeToTakeYourCheese, Vampire Scooby, Deidara's Manialoll 4 Ever, DrownMySoul

Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe, Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, Crazy Billie Joe Loving Freak, Shadow929,SweetNCrazieSugarmuffin,The Komodo Dragon Phoenix,Bust_A_Groover, Tecna, Triggonseed, The Only Innocent Writer Here-Yumi, EstellaB, NarnianMelody, Just A Little Bit Dramatic, Vampiress19, I'veComeToTakeYourCheese,Vampire Scooby, Deidara's Manialoll 4 Ever, DrownMySoul

93 percent of American teens would have a severe emotional breakdown if someone called them a freak. If you're a part of the 7 percent who would ask the person, "What was your first clue?", copy this into your profile and add your name to the list: Sunlit Goddess of the C.O.C.A., Moonlit Goddess of the C.O.C.A., Evil Genius of the COCA, Invader Miley Phantom, dAnnYsGiRl777, BloodySalvation, Lady Lost-A-Lot, bellabookworm9, Bella Masen Cullen, Vampire Scooby, Deidara's Manialoll 4 Ever, DrownMySoul

AV is Addicted to Vampires

ADHD is Automatic Death by Hyperness Disorder

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This is an email I sent to one of my friends, but it was so random I decided to post it here so people could lagh at my randomness.

My friend is dead. Pretty hard to believe huh. She hasn't answered my emails in like 5 days. She's dead I tell you! I'M GOING TO PROTEST! holds up large protest sign saying "My friend is dead until an email says otheriwse", while I parade around in a small circle Hooh wipes sweat off of forehead That's enough exercise for today. munches on cookie I got a whole bunch of books on vampires when I went to Barnes-'n-Noble in Minneapolis. Yay! pumps fist in the air as fireworks blast in the backround MAKE IT A NATIONAL HOLIDAY! Alrighty then, I'm no longer able to run on hyperness after these outbursts. Wait, I'll check. opens gas tank to hyperness-mobile...empty...gas pump drips Yep...absolutely empty. Let's see what I waisted it on shall we? pulls out large overhead with lots of graphs Let's see...points to graph while meraculously wearing a white labcoat and pointerthingy while wearing glasses...wait I already do! Protest: 5 percent, wiping sweat away: 10 percent, Munching of cookie: 60 percent, Holiday festival: 10 percent, Checking gas mobile: 2 percent, Making Graph: 3 percent, Changing into Labcoat: 10 percent WHAT! IT TAKES ME TEN OF MY HYPERNESS TO CHANGE CLOTHES!! pouts in a corner Pouting: 10 percent WHAT! THAT'S A -10! A NEGATIVE TEN PERCENT!! Not fair! I should really cut back on my hyperness usage. I know! I'll just not whipe my sweat away! Then I'll eat another cookie. DON'T GIVE ME THAT LOOK!! THAT COOKIE WAS WORTH EVERY SINGLE PERCENTAGE OF MY HYPERNESS!! weezes from sudden outburst in energy Weezing: 20 percent DAMMIT!! That's it. I need to use my last resort! DU-DUN DU-DUN DU-DUNDU-DUNDU-DUNDU-DUNDU-DUN DU-DUMMMM!! (Jaws theme, hehe) sneaks into my sister's room to her mini fridge wearing a ninja suit and glances both ways. Opens up her frige and steals a DU DU DU DUN!! RED BULL! Chugs down Red Bull

!Warning! Warning! Hyperness Overload! Hyperness Overload! Danger! Self Detonation in 5... 4... 3... 2... 1... BBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMM!!

I'm alive!! runs over to recheck the new hyperness graph Becoming a Ninja: 15 percent, Opening the Refridgerator: 20 percent WHAT! Chugging a Red Bull: 5 percent, Self Detonating: 125 percent WHAT THE HELL YOU CAN'T BE SERI...

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Favorite-

Movie of all time!- Repo! The Genetic Opera-the most badass musical eva! Night SURGEON!

Manga of all time!- AKUMETSU!-I LOVE Shou's personality! And I love his Mascot Aametsu (my icon) and the artwork and the mask are awesomeness!

Anime:

Soul Eater- Grim Reapers galore!

Get Backers- Chibi Ginji-kun! YAY!!

Naruto- One word peoples: Ninjas!

Ouan High School Host Club- Funny!

Twelve Kingdoms- I don't think I need to explain this one

Ergo Proxy- Weird...but cool

Samurai X- Kenshin rocks in this!

Jigoku Shoujo- So sad sniffs

Jogoku Shoujo Futakomori- Enma Ai is so kawaii!

D Gray Man- Ceater of the coolest name ever...Allen Walker

Claymore- Women kick ass!

Bleach- Bankai rocks

Death Note- Light is an insane genius, and Mello is HOT! (I wanna steal his chocolate)

Kiba- Amil Gaul, need I say more? And Zed... lovely Zed. What can I say? I love em!

Kenichi- the awesomeness

Katekyo Hitman Reborn- You got a baby hitman and a boy who loves to blow things up with dinomite...WHAT'S NOT TO LIKE!!

Samurai Champloo- Mugen's epic, and Jin is just...awesome

Mai-Hime- 12 girls kicking ass...what's better than that?

La Portrait De Petite Cossette- this is the most beautifully drawn anime in the history of all anime, and the soundtrack is AMAZING!

Manga or Comic Book: Really expensive if you ask me

Akumetsu- I LOVE HIS MASK AND HIS WAYS OF ACTION!!

Blade of the Immortal- I LOOOOVE this artwork!

Ludwig Kakumei- I HEART THIS! IT IS SO FUNNY! Fairy tales with a dark twist, but with a boob obsessed prince and a cosplaying witch!

Doubt (aka Rabbit Doubt)- OMG! IT'S LIKE AND THEN THERE WERE NONE! I LOVE THE FACT THAT THE EVIL KILLER GUY WEARS A BUNNY MASK! DEFENITE PSYCHO-THRILLER!

Liar Game- Let me think, you've got a conman, a strange most likely illegal game, brain teasers, and threats. WHAT MORE COULD YOU WANT!?

Skyhigh- It's like a dark themed Jigoku Shoujo and I just LOVE IT!

Are You Alice?- Insane in the membrain. Wicked sane, got no brain!

Skyhigh Karma- For the same reason I loved the first!

Shounen Dolls- hot dolls who fight like cats and dogs!

Hello Baby- truth that life's a bitch, with great artwork!

Claymore-I know, they ruined the show, but the manga is still good.

Death Note- For the Same reason I love the show! L, MELLO, AND SHINIGAMI!!

WolfMan- WEREWOLF!!

Ouran High School Host Club- the reason should be obvious

Bride of the Water God- the artwork is so beautiful, and the storyline is amazing, Haebek is so ADORABLE! as a kid!

Bitter Virgin- it's kinda sad

Soul Eater- For the same reason I watch its anime SCHOOL FOR GRIM REAPERS!

Color: Black-Dark is good, dark is VERY good

Book:

Twelve Kingdoms- This series is delightful(yes, I can sound "intelligent" Parents: dad dies from shock, mom calls 911 saying a robot has replaced her daughter) and is both beautiful, and creativly written. Fuyumi Ono has outdone herself with this masterpiece, and the anime that fallowed was just as beatiful as the books...

The Cal Leandros Series (Nightlife, Moonshine, Madhouse, Deathwish, soon to be Roadkill)- If you have not read this series you need to freaking READ IT! Half monster Cal is sarcastic and hilarious! AND HE'S GOT A NINJA BROTHER! A FREAKING NINJA BORTHER! Two words people: Bad ass. If Niko was a real person I'd jump him, right then and there (and then have my head sliced off by his sword XD) What can I say, I love people who have obsessions with all things sharp and pointy _

Death Note: Another Note, the BB Murder Cases- AWESOMENESS! B is my favorite Death Note character EVA! (after Mello of course...)

Truancy- FINALLY! A BOOK ABOUT HORRID SCHOOL SYSTEMS!

In the Forest of the Night- THE BEST vampire book I have ever read

Beatboxer: Roxorloops- He kicks ass!

DJ: Mike Relm- Gotta love his glasses

Animal: Wolf or Tiger- GRRRrrrr

Food: Chinese or Asian- Yum!

Martial Artist: Xin Sarith Azuma Phan Wuku (aka ZEN from Gladiators, Urban Ninja, Son of Heaven, and the creater of EMC-Evolved Monkey Combat)

Movies: Dark Knight, Wanted, Van Helsing, Inside man, Donny Darko, Pirates Of The Carribean Movies, Brick, Cry Wolf, Suspect 0, X-Men Origins: Woverine...and too many others to put down

Music Groups: Pendulum, Gram Rabbit, Nine Inch Nails, VAST, Puscifer, Muse, Insane Clown Posse, Dir en Grey, Modest Mouse, D'espairsRay, Celldweller, Lacuna Coil- I'm too lazy to mention the others

Songs: Seven Nation Army, ICKY THUMP! Everlasting, Ring of Fire, Kasumi, ANARCHY CAMP!, Pretty When You Cry, Touched, Psyche, Pink Spider, Scars, Creepy Doll, Forsaken, Happy, Hold Out Your Hand, Our Truth, Heaven's A Lie, Let The Bodies Hit The Floor, Behind Blue Eyes, He Said She Said, End Of All Hope, More Human Than Human, This Is Halloween, Libra, How Long, Redeemer, Even More Human than Human, Shizophren, Youth Of The Nation, and others of this kind, or songs that have good lyrics-Gotta have my rock

Types Of Music: J-Rock, Gothic, Hard Rock, Rock, Punk Rock, Medal, Rap, and Hip Hop or Pop if I'm not in the mood of a negative dark teen-Which is like never, WAIT!...well crap, I've become a hyper girl. Someone SAVE ME!

Favorite Musician/Musical Artist: hide- a genius songwriter and singer. Sadly, I report that I have learned he died on May 2, 1998 All who read this should check out his songs. Psyche, Pink Spider, Goodbye, and Beauty&Stupid are my personal favorites of his.

Personality: Very accepting, hyper, bubbly, always willing to listen to and be there for my friends (apparnetly to the point of self-destruction, but it's worth it) I'm a kind of person who likes to live without regrets, and speaks with blunt honesty. I don't talk behind your back, and if I have a problem with you that bothers me enough to speak of it, I will tell it to your face. If you have a bad day I will try and make you smile by being a dork, but if it's a really bad day I'll do what I can to make it better, cuz things always get better, especially tomorrow!

Hobbies: Writing, Drawing, Fanfiction, Reading, Sleeping, Being completely lazy, Sleeping, Watching Movies, Computer, Listening to music, Sleeping, Amusing myself from watching those little things people call sissy/cat fights, and you guessed it...Sleeping-I am incredibly lazy

Words I Hate: Tummy,Yummy, Tasty, Belly, ,Like, saying any of these once is way to much in my life time

3 Random Facts about me: 1) When I'm really stressed, or upset/angry I'll listen to Johnny Cash singing Ring of Fire repeatedly, 2) I feel claustrophobic around people, so I hate huge groups(hence me not going to concerts, though I'm pretty good with theatres since there's seats, and we don't go on opening days) 3) My secret goal in life is to go to Italy with my wallet sticking out of my back jean pocket, then when a pickpocket gets it (and you KNOW they will) they'll open it to find nothing inide except a note saying "Haha, gotcha!" of even better yet "We thank you for participating in our Reducing Criminal Acts Experiment. Please note that there is a Global Tracking Device imbedded in this wallet."

Well...I guess that about wraps it up...so...yeah...insert awkward laugh...o.k...Bye!...runs away

Oh, don't think I'm a genius or nuttin' I had to look up awkward at . I thought it was spelled aquard or acquard. Maybe even acward? See? I suck!!

Yeah...