About me

I am a currently a university student, studying Stage Management, and I have always used books and tv to get away from all the stress of my work.

I adore writing, it provides and outlet and a sense of freedom that nothing else really does.

And so, whilst I want to be a Stage Manager and tour with shows and have an exciting and fulfilling career with that, I also want to be an author.

It's something I've wanted for a long time but never had the drive to push for, mainly because I never believed that I was good enough.

But the difference between dreaming and living something is having the courage to go for it, to take that step and trust that the ground will still be there to catch you. It's something I have been struggling with lately, do I believe I am talented to make it as a writer?

And the answer I've come to is...why does it matter?

My top fic on this site is loved and read by so many people, and a core group of those have gone on to be some of my best friends, my family even.

I don't need to make it big, or make a load of money, or be famous.

If just one person is touched in any way by the work I do, and the stories I create, then it's worth doing.

So watch this space, cause I'm on a mission to finish my first book and get it published, and when I do?? Well then it will be time to figure out what happens then, but until that, I'll just focus on the next thing I need to do to get where I want to be, one small step at a time.

Sexuality and Representation

A lot of my stories revolve around LGBT relationships, and I thought for a while about whether to put this in my profile, but a recent event convinced me.

I am an out and proud pansexual woman, and I don't give a damn who knows about it.

And with that confidence in who I am, I never thought I would have cause to hide it.

But just this week, I decided to enter a writing competition, and from the prompt, my first thought was to center it on someone coming to terms with their sexuality and who they are and their families acceptance of that.

But I didn't.

Instead I wrote it about someone grieving for someone they had lost, what would have been hopeful and lighthearted ultimately, instead turned out angst filled and quite emotional for me to write because I drew from a personal experience that I haven't previously spoke about.

But that's not the point, the point is I really wanted to enter this competition and have a good shot at winning, because to say I won an award, no matter how big, for writing would be amazing for me and a good first step towards a future career doing what I love.

And from the information the people running the competition gave? Well, there was enough doubt in my mind to stop me going with my original story. Because I didn't want to be disqualified from the competition just because my lead character was like me.

I hear it alot, the phrase, why do you have to tell everyone your sexuality. And it's because of this, we owe it to ourselves, and to everyone else who is nervous about being themselves, to be open and honest. I have never shied away from being queer, until I finally came face to face with a situation in which I realised that there can be negatives to it.

The reality is, we're not there yet, and until then, we can't stop pushing.

Which is why, every original piece of writing I do which features an LGBT character, is going to contain a character who is a real person, whose sexuality is addressed openly and respectfully without erasing everything else they are.

And I think it's important that writers on all platforms make and maintain that promise.