"Being his real brother I could feel I lived in his shadows, but I never have and I do not now. I live in his glow." A series of one-shots, each based on an episode. These are the moments we never got to see. Chapter 231: Love Hurts.

Life isn't easy and, for the Winchesters, it's always been an uphill struggle. Good times or bad, one thing never changed: they were brothers. Everyone and everything that had ever attempted to change that had failed. And always would. A collection of 50 varied short(ish) stories of the Winchester Brothers through the years. **Chapter 18 now posted**

The ghost turned out to be the least of their problems.

While away at school, Sam receives Dean's amulet in an unmarked package. Could it be a simple mistake? Or is there something much more sinister at play? Sam and Dean are captured by a hunter desperate for revenge. Hurt/Worried/Sam and Hurt/Protective/Dean. Pre-Series. Stanford-era.

The long, dragged-out, unpredictable, emotional, let's-nearly-kill-'im version of Sam dealing with the trials (setting S08) */* Hard gen (no slash), sick Sam, hurt Sam, big bro Dean, shmoop, brotherly love, platonic hugs & cuddles, recovery. */* Complete rewrites/revisions of this fic were completed on 8/20/2019! WOOHOO!

The older boy is sick, coughing in a way that makes Bobby cringe and the toddler has his fist wrapped in his brother's shirt. And even though there is snow on the ground, neither one is wearing shoes. Bobby has never seen a sorrier sight. Pre-series.

Series of oneshots of Sam and Dean as daddies (and uncles!). No Wincest. No Destiel. Brotp only. Will happily take requests.

Pointless brotherly mush featuring crazy Sam. Another vague installment of my Genesis 'verse.

Dean is back… or is he? Coda to 14x02 "Gods and Monsters". Hurt/Comfort. Protective!Dean. Possessed!Dean.

Hurt/scaredSam and Worried/protectiveDean! Suspicious deaths bring Sam and Dean to Black Hills, South Dakota where they discover an old Navajo curse has suddenly awakened. Nothing they can't handle until something goes wrong with a certain little brother. Set in Season 8, after Sam starts the Trials.

Hibbing 9-1-1 tag story: When Sam's injured and Dean is nowhere to be found, Jody steps into the gap. And she's not the only one. (Jody POV)

Sam deals with killing Luci. Obviously AU. Rated for talking a lot about killing in Ch 1. Up now Ch 2: Jack's POV

This is a series of stories showing times when Sam needed Dean near him to be able to sleep. New chapter: Missing Scene to S13E22.

The week after Thanksgiving, Bucky asks Tony Stark if he can talk to him. Bucky Barnes, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers

Tag scene to Mama Mia. Sam wants to take a shower and go to bed. There's just one small thing: he can't go to bed. Rated for what's going through Sam's mind. Nothing explicit.

Set during OotP. When Harry falls ill in Snape's lesson, the last thing he expects is for the ensuing drama to unveil a deadly plot that could end his life once and for all...

This is a collection of drabbles and oneshots written mostly to fulfill people's requests. Set in various seasons with a multitude of different characters. Potential spoiler warnings given at the start of each chapter. Not a slash fiction. (With much love and gratitude I dedicate this series to GuestJ and TG, for always remembering and returning.)

An unpreventable accident leaves Sam drowning in guilt - thankfully, Dean has an unending supply of life preservers made specially for little-trouble-magnet-brothers. Pre-series. Teenchesters. Hurt/Guilty/Sam and Protective/Big Brother/Dean.

"When I was broken up, you were there for me. Well, I'm here for you now." Protective!Dean. BigBro!Dean. Hurt/Comfort. Brother Feels. Coda to 13x11 "Breakdown"

Post-Red Meat. The hours hadn't been any kinder to his brother than they'd been to Sam. Dean looked sick. And not just the "my brother got shot and is bleeding on the floor in front of me" kind of sick. As they try to put each other back together, Sam learns something about his brother's past he never knew. There are more pieces to pick up than either of them realized.

Tag for 13.01, Lost And Found. A deeper look at the boy's way of grieving...also Jack is a mini Cas.

Sammy doesn't make sense. That's just a fact of life, like the sky is blue and witches are gross.

First Born tag: The Winchesters have taught him what it means to love...and to be exasperated. (Castiel POV)

Dean knows the second he picks up the phone. EpilepticSam 'verse.

Four times Sam was helpless. Trials, Lucifer, the death of a civilian, after The Cage. Sick/MentallyIll/Hurt!Sam, a little bit of comfort.

Bad Boys prequel: D-Dawg kept in touch. (Sonny POV)

Tag scene to Who We Are. Sam and Dean discuss - sort of - the last time they met up with Roy and Walt. One bad word.

Tag scene to Regarding Dean. That night at the motel, Sam & Dean have trouble sleeping. Ch 2: the next morning

Sam and Dean recover both emotionally and physically from the latest life-or-death crisis. Tag to 12.11 - Regarding Dean. Hurt/Caring/Sam and Protective/Big Brother/Dean.

Sam struggles with the reality of being forced to face Lucifer - yet again - and Dean does everything he can to help his little brother through the terror of it all. Tag to 12x23 "All Along the Watchtower"

A collection of one-shots based on reader's prompts featuring anything from canon or AU, pre-series, any season and post-series, both hurt/limp/sick!Sam or badass/hero!Sam. PROMPTS CLOSED.

S7, post-Born Again Identity. He'd been expecting Sam to crash for about a month. What he hadn't been expecting was Sam not crashing right away. What he should have been prepared for, but found himself completely surprised by, was the withdrawal and emotional fallout. The boys slowly pick up the pieces, and get some unexpected help along the way from friends: Tommy and Arla Pender.

When one brother loses sight of his own value, the other is always quick to recover it for him; be it blatantly or subtly, purposefully or unintentionally, indelicately or tactfully, they have always been there to restore each other's self-worth. Two-Shot. Teenchester Flashback.

Jody Mills gets a call from a mental hospital two states away.

It was oddly calm once the carolers had moved on to the next room. The same kind of calm that Sam always felt on Christmas Eve. Like the world was still for a change. Peaceful. He was glad that being holed up in a hospital bed hadn't changed that. [Features Sick!Sam and Worried!Dean.] Teenchesters.

To the Winter Soldier, there are three kinds of people in the world: superiors, mission support, and targets. He lacks the context to understand things like friendship. So what he sees in the Smithsonian exhibit and what little he remembers or feels about his past, he interprets in that light. He thinks that Steve must have been his handler during WWII. Cue misunderstandings.

Someone was going to die for this. Dean didn't know anything else at that moment but of that much he was certain. Someone was going to pay. HurtSam, BigBroDean

Severus Snape knew that his new found rapport with Harry Potter would have its fair share of problems. But even he, Death Eater spy and Dark Arts master, could not have predicted the perilous journey that lay before them. Sequel to The Sleeping Sickness

A magical infection has Ron critically ill, but after the devastation of the war he decides his family and friends don't need to know. How long can he hide it though? And how will the consequences of his actions change the course of the future?

Death-fic. It's almost Christmas, but they both know he's not going to make it that long. Tissue warning.

It's the first time Sam's been sick since escaping the cage and he's not handling it very well.

Dean had been down this road so many times, he could write a book about it: "The Complete Illustrated Guide to Nursing Your Little Brother Back to Health After He's Been Tortured." Season 12x02. Hurt!Sam. Caring/Protective!Dean.

In which a thirteen year old Sam finds himself in a strange bunker with a fever of what feels like a million degrees and a stranger claiming to be his brother. Set during the Trials.

"Feel that?" Benny whispered against the shell of Sam's ear, sending a violent shiver down the man's spine. "Feel the way your heart's trying to punch its way out of your chest? That's what dying feels like. And you better get used to it." Hurt!Sam, Protective!Dean, season!8

Sam is angry (and kind of traumatized). Dean is worried (and concussed). Neither of them knows what to do now. Sequel to Anywhere Else But Here.

The Winchester brothers get into trouble and are forced to spend the night in a holding cell. Sam struggles with memories of his time in the Cage, while Dean does his best to fight off any and all threats to his little brother; be it memories, nightmares, or their cellmate. One-shot. Hurt/Sam and Protective/Dean. Slight tag to 7x17 - The Born-Again Identity.

A Little Slice of Kevin tag: Castiel sees some truths about the Winchesters that they themselves don't, or won't. Like that they're both being morons.

Sequel to Ye Who Enter Here. Let's put it this way: Sam's adjustment period is not without dramatic flair.

AU set after 'Swan Song'. Castiel rescues Sam from Hell but Dean finds out that 180 years in the Cage have changed his brother. Will Dean be able to leave hunting behind and take care of his damaged sibling?

Getting Sam out of the Cage was only the beginning. 'Dean didn't know the details of what had happened to his brother while he was in Lucifer's clutches, but he knew it was something Sam was going to need help coming through.' Post 11.09 – O Brother, Where Art Though?

11X17 Red Meat. Season Eleven spoiler warnings. Some hurt. Some comfort. Some humor. Some worried Dean. Some Dean pov. Some loopy Sam. Some hero Sam. Some Sam pov. Some caring big brother Dean. Some coloring in-between the lines as well as some coloring outside of the lines. That about sums it up. LOL.

Today is a bad day. Good thing Sam has Dean to help him through it. Post-Cage AU.

Tag fic to S11E09 "O Brother Where Art Thou?" Alternate canon of S11E10. Dean and Castiel travel to hell to save Sam. Warning: graphic violence/torture in later chapters.

What if Sirius refused to leave Harry at the end of the third task? What if he decided to stay with Harry? One different decision is enough to change a future. AU. SiriusxHarryxRemus family fic. No slash whatsoever.

S11. Tag to "The Devil in the Details." Sam wasn't ok. Not at all. Dean didn't need to ask his brother that question to know the answer. He decided he wasn't even going to ask that question tonight. In fact, he was going to give it a few days before asking that question. After a few days he would ask it and then he'd pretend to believe Sam when he lied and said he was fine.

During that dark year when Voldemort held sway over Wizarding Britain, Poppy Pomfrey gives Headmaster Snape a Christmas gift. Sequel to "Snape's Memories".

Bobby's always had an open door policy with the boys. Even when they haven't called in months. Even when they show up injured. Even when one of them is dying. Hurt!Sam. Hurt!Dean. Oneshot.

A gift is sometimes just as much for the giver as the recipient. A little Season 11 Christmas piece.

"What a way to spend Christmas Eve, huh? Nothing says 'holiday spirit' like being fileted by an angry werewolf." . . . In which Sam needs stitches, and Dean notices something on his brother's back. Takes place between 8x10 and 8x11. Slightly AU. Not a slash fiction.

The Born-Again Identity tag: Weeks of sleeplessness and crazy take their toll, or, how Dean takes care of his brother after Cas fixes him.

Steve watches found footage of Bucky being turned into the Winter Soldier. Rated for torture and heartbreak.

Out with the Old tag story: A case brings home to Dean just how much his brother is struggling.

The Winter Soldier was an asset to Hydra, but now he is nothing, useless and broken. Yet Steve and the Avengers deem him worthy enough to celebrate his date of birth. A year later, Bucky finally has his life back and most of his mind, just in time to truly celebrate the gift of knowing who he is and a future surrounded by the friends who gave him that precious second chance.

Tag to 10x23 – Pre-series flashbacks to present – Little Brother Sam, Big Brother Dean – Sam tried to smile, tried to reassure Dean that he understood...that he accepted his fate...and no matter what, he still loved his big brother.

This is the Sequel to, "No More Pain." Please read that first! Bucky has finally regained control over his Body but the mind can be a treacherous enemy when it has been manipulated and tormented for so long. Steve and the Avengers will be there to help him heal, face the impending Trial for the Crimes of the Winter Soldier and help him regain his sense of self. Nonslash-lotaBrolove

Summary: Sam wakes up from a nightmare and needs his big brother to make everything okay. All the while Dean needs his little brother to remind him that he's not alone. One-shot. Stanford-era. Pre-series. Frightened/Worried/Sam, Comforting/Jess, and Big Brother/Caring/Dean.

He knows Pain. He Knows Fighting and Killing and Obeying Orders. But then there is Steve. The Winter Soldier struggles to understand humanity, desperate to be more then Hydra's weapon. Yet at the same time the Man known as James Buchanan Barns is fighting to live again and reclaim himself! The story is finished and in editing. Will be updated regularly. Promise! Violence/ NonCon.

Goblet of Fire alternate graveyard scenario. Barty Crouch, Jr. escaped the grounds on the night of the Third Task, and Harry is taken captive and held at the Malfoy manor. This story focuses on the relationships between Harry and Snape (not slash), Harry and Sirius (NOT slash), and could be considered heavy on the hurt-comfort. Contains the SEXUAL ASSAULT OF A MINOR, but no rape.

During the summer before sixth year, Harry finds an injured bat in the garden and decides to try to heal it...and an unwilling Snape learns just what kind of a person Harry Potter really is. No slash.

The Trials and Tribulations of Creating a Painkiller for a Super-Soldier in Tights: a story by Tony Stark.

Because of a student death, new measures are being taken to screen students for abuse. With Dumbledore facing an enquiry, Snape is in charge of making sure every student receives an examination. Abused!Harry. Character death. Sevitis. In answer to the "New Measures for Screening Abuse" challenge at Potions and Snitches. Yes, it is a "Snape is Harry's biological father" story.

Missing Scene for Episode 10.03, Soul Survivor. The pain went deeper than just the physical effects of the blood. It was pain of regret, of missed chances, of what ifs and should haves, of loss. It was the pain of humanity.

AU of season 5, veering off from canon after the end of 5.04, after Sam and Dean are hunting together again. In a diner one day, Sam notices that something's missing. Something kind of important.

Post 7.16 Out With the Old: Sleep deprivation sucks. But anything's better than sleeping. He decides it's time for a little boost. Then again, Sam's never been the wisest decision maker...

It's Harry and Ginny's wedding day. Vignette 1 - Ron helps Harry get ready while Ginny visits Severus. Vignette 2: The wedding, the reception and a return to Shell Cottage.

He tries to reach out to Steve, but he can't feel his arm. It's too cold. Everything is cold save for his blood and Steve's smile. Long after he forgets his own name, Bucky remembers "Steve."

The first, and last, time John Winchester hits Sam.

An accident the summer before 6th year puts Dumbledore's plans for Harry in motion sooner than planned. Will an unexpected truce with Snape better prepare Harry for what is to come? A Snape mentors Harry fic with all the regular players. AU after OOTP.

"Don't move," they tell the asset, and they leave him standing naked in the center of the room.

Hope is a tiny speck of white, surrounded by a bigger area of blue. The outside of the paper is red hurt and orange anger and grey confusion and black forgetting. He curls the sides of the paper under so the Hope shows the most. This is gifted to I'vebeenLOKI'Dyetagain. I was replying to their comment, when my reply turned into a plot bunny for this story.

Set early season 7- having had all his memory restored, Sam is not only suffering from hallucinations and unwanted memories, but also from "Robo-Sam" decisions his body still seems to be making for him.

Being in the same room isn't the same as being together. Someone decides that Dean needs a little extra kick to get him back in gear with his brother before it's too late. [s5, post The End, largely canon compliant]

The man shows him a new picture. A large blond man was huddled in the center of the paper, his face hidden in his hands. Surrounding him were pictures of another man with brown hair. Underneath were the words I have nightmares, too. The Soldier doesn't know how to draw 'safe', so he draws 'hurt'.

AU Tag to 9x07 – 10-year old Hurt Sam, 14-year old Big Brother Dean, Awesome Sonny – He was familiar with the type of kid who was currently handcuffed and sitting on his couch. But the one thing throwing Sonny for a loop was this other kid. This scrawny little guy in an oversized hoodie who was clearly several years younger than the thief he was sitting beside.

Set Season 4: Blood, Sex, & Violence. Or the first time Sam Winchester said yes. Angsty!Sam, Manipulative!Ruby

Deathly Hallows from Ron and Hermione's point of view - focused mostly on each other ... because Harry's a sweetheart, but terribly clueless

Seeking some relief from Season 9? Here you go. Angst, brotherly love and even some Weechesters! Set right after "The Purge". Sam's anger towards Dean has been lingering for days. But when a 5 year old version of Sam shows up at their door, both boys will learn a lesson about what it means to be a Winchester brother.

Finding Bucky is the easy part. He's broken and terrified and a shell of his former self, but Steve knows he can save him. It'll just take time - time and patience. And many sleepless nights. Spoilers for Captain America: The Winter Soldier. No slash, just friendship and LOTS of h/c.

Bucky can't sleep. Post-Winter Soldier

In the midst of snowstorm, a stranger runs into an injured and hypothermic Sam. His memory is spotty; he knows that a hunt went sideways and that Dean's in trouble-he just doesn't know where he is. Outsider POV, showcasing the brothers' relationship. H/C

They lock Steve in a freezer for 34 hours. It takes much longer for him to thaw.

In which in the Winter Soldier is in the care of the Avengers. He has yet to regain his memories, but he has developed a fondness for dairy products. Contains spoilers for Captain America: The Winter Soldier.

Snape/ Harry mentor fic. Set after the Tri-wizard Tournament and Voldemort's return to physical form. Harry is forced to spend the summer with Snape to train how to fight. It is not an arrangement either can stand but they must find a way to communicate if they are to make any progress at all.

Upon his reluctant return to the Dursley home after the events of his 5th year, Harry becomes depressed and ill. After an unexpected visit to the doctor Harry discovers an new challenge that he must face. AU 6th year. Challenge on P&S. CANCER FIC! WARNING

Tag to 5.14 My Bloody Valentine: Sam's panic room aftermath.

The intensity of the close bond between the Winchester brothers inspires envy, awe, admiration, longing and even suspicion in outsiders. A series of stories told by individuals after unforgettable encounters with Sam and Dean.

Post 9x13 – Slightly Injured Sam/Big Brother Dean – Usually after a conversation like they had experienced the previous night, they would avoid each other, especially the next morning. But here Dean was. Because Sam needed painkillers and water and someone to call him on his BS...and all of that sounded like a job for Dean Winchester.

So my mom doesn't know a thing about Supernatural, but she knows it's all i ever think about so she wrote a very mini fan fic. Pretty accurate if you ask me. Way to go mom!

Steve Wandell had friends, and they're pretty sure Dean knows something.

It's the night of the Dementor attack on Harry and Grimmauld Place is in an uproar. That is, until Sirius opens his mouth and they receive a strange pile of books...

Pizza Pie 'verse – 4-yr old Sam, 8-yr old Dean, Awesome Uncle Bobby, Puppy Rumsfeld...and John being John – Bobby continued to listen, hearing Dean's voice as it floated down the hall; the big brother talking Sam through his usual bedtime routine as if it was just another night. As if the four-year old wasn't covered in blood. As if Dean wasn't also covered in blood.

Tag to 3.16 No Rest for the Wicked - Bobby's POV: "And Dean…his boy. His boy was a horrible, bloody mess. Torn to shreds. Lying there like a Hellhound's chew toy. It wasn't right. His boy didn't deserve to go like that."

What if Neville was detained when the Death Eater was trying to strangle Harry in the Department of Mysteries? The effect of one simple action could dramatically alter the course of the future... But for better or worse?

Tag to MBV - Sam wakes up in the panic room after his 2nd withdrawal. Sam's POV.

My first shot at an alphabet game-an individual one-shot for every letter of the alphabet. Lots and lots of Limp!Sam and Protective!Dean, as well as some other ones mixed in there as well.

Written for OhSam Comment Fic- Dean is given a first-hand view of what life in his brother's head is like thanks to one pissed-off witch. Post 7x07 "The Mentalists" hurt/comfort and angst aplenty for Sam and Dean.

Post Season Eight – Sick Sam / Big Brother Dean – Every day had been the same since that rainy night. Their world now reduced to each other and the Batcave and nothing else. And strangely enough...that was fine. Let the world save itself for once. Dean had other priorities. The only thing that mattered was Sam.

They're in the middle of freaking no where when Sam goes bat shit insane.

This is my version of Breaking Dawn as told from Edward's point of view. It is the sequel to Moonless Night and Eternal Equinox. This story is rated M because there will be some themes and material unsuitable for younger readers.

Written for a Prompt: What happens when an anti-possession tattoo is damaged? Nothing good. Post 8x14 "Trial and Error" hurt!Sam caring!Dean to the rescue!Cas

Sequel to 'Frailty'. Dean is desperately searching for a way to cure Sam of his hallucinations but just how far will he go to save his brother and what price will he be willing to pay?

Like a Virgin missing scenes and tag: Sam has a lot of catching up to do.

You know, being trapped inside Sam Winchester's head is a torture all its own. A little trip down Hallucifer lane. Post 7x14 "Plucky Pennywhistle's Magical Menagerie" tormented!Sam awesome/caring!Dean but mostly good old Luci.

When Sam's hurt, Dean's just not a people person. Tag scene to Sacrifice. Dean takes Sam to the ER. Outsider POV.

After the dust has settled, there's a heart-to-heart. Dean's always had questions. This time he'll get answers. Spoilers through to 8.23, "Sacrifice". Written for the Jedi Sapphire/Scribble2Much fic exchange as a companion piece to "Just Press Reset".

Season 8: Sometimes, Sam feels like he's regained Dean's trust; but deep down, he's scared that might be too much to ask for. Spoilers up to 8:19, "Taxi Driver". Written for the Jedi Sapphire/Scribble2Much fic exchange. Companion piece to "A Heart to Ache or Swell".

Sam completes the third trial. Completely alternate version of S8's ending. Inspired by S08E23's promo images of Sam. Tags: Season Eight, Sick!Sam, Hurt!Sam, BigBro!Dean, Brotherly Love

Pre-Series, Stanford-era – So what if the guns didn't get cleaned tonight and the research didn't happen? Dean was watching his kid brother on Jeopardy...which meant everything else could wait.

A collection of S8-related one shots and tags. #4: In Sickness: A moment between the boys after the events with Charlie, inspired by the teaser. Spoilers up to 8.20, "Pac Man Fever" and maybe for the sneak peek to the next episode.

AU Spin on 8x20 – Sick Sam / Big Brother Dean / Quirky, Supportive Charlie – If Sam was sicker now than when they had left him...if they indeed found him on the floor coughing up blood...then Dean would handle it; Dean would take care of his brother; Dean would somehow make it better. Charlie had never been so sure of anything else in her life.

Strength is sometimes knowing when you need help, and being strong enough to accept it. So… one-shots on a theme.

Season 8 – Sick, Feverish, Nauseous Sam / Awesome Big Brother Dean taking care of his Sammy – When I'm sick and tired, we watch TV.

Crowley read those books, and he has some things to say to Dean. It's time for truths to be told. Spoilers through to 8.22, "Clip Show".

The third trial has been completed, and Sam and Dean are at a loss; Sam's health is deteriorating more quickly than ever, and Cas has abandoned ship. Dean, unable to deal with his brother's illness on his own, calls in reinforcements- of the nerdy-redhead variety.

Sam is diagnosed with a Seizure Disorder - Epilepsy - when he is ten years old. A series of chronological vignettes. This story is an ongoing 'verse but all stories are complete inside. Relevant tags: disability, hurt!sam, brotherly love, bigbro!dean, weechester, teenchester, camp, school, neurology, adolescence, emergency, fatigue, disorientation

The brothers struggle with what's happened, and what's coming. Sam is struggling, trying to let Dean help-and protect him at the same time. And Dean is trying to find some way to take as much of the burden as he can. An accident with a knife opens the door for both. Spoilers for the last few episodes.

Thanks to a witch's curse, Sam has nothing but time on his hands and nothing to entertain him but his own thoughts. Post 7x07 "The Mentalists" hurt/limp!Sam comfort/awesome!Dean

Ever since Sam had turned 13, his father has been forcing him into a life that he wants no part of. When John and Dean leave on a hunt that takes them across state lines, Sam knows this is his chance. How he had ended up on Bobby's porch; however, was a bit of a blur. So much for his grand plans of getting away from it all. *Sam 13, Dean 18, Sam/Bobby bonding and BigBrother!Dean*

Sam's Hell was Lucifer, and Lucifer burned cold. Since getting his soul back, Sam can't seem to remember what warm even felt like. Dean buys him fuzzy girly socks.

The first time Dean sees & talks to Sam in his room on the psych ward.

With time running out for Dean, Sam finally finds someone who is willing to cut a deal. But the price is higher than he expected. Late season 3. Complete!

There were many times Sam woke up screaming. And Dean never stopped feeling helpless. Very T for language; also trigger warnings for mentions of suicide and implied non-con. Canon-ish in spots, just squint if any slight divergence bothers you.

Sam goes through withdrawal again, but this time it's from nothing supernatural. Turns out he was taking antidepressants during Dean's absence, and going off them isn't proving to be easy...

Sam hadn't made mistakes. He'd made choices. And now, with the gun pointed to his head, there was really just one choice left to make. AU aftermath of 8.06, Southern Comfort. Trigger warning for suicide.

Season seven spoiler warnings. One shot. Lucifer POV. Hallucinating Sam. Awesome big brother Dean.

Post-7.17. After getting out of the hospital, Sam's exhausted and skittish. Dean's still processing everything. Together they deal. Written for the LJ SPN Summer Gen fic exchange.

Set after S7.E10-11 Sam and Dean are crushed after the loss of Bobby and decide to go to Rufus' cabin to gather their bearings. Thinking that they will be able to grieve in peace, they are sorely mistaken when Sam beings to hallucinate again.

When both Severus Snape and Harry Potter survive, against all odds, they must renegotiate their relationship... and save each other all over again. This is a MENTORING/adoption fic, not slash. It is canon -compliant and begins immediately post-battle. It's rated Teen - for everyone 13 and up. Mild cussing in one or two chapters, some angst.

Set vaguely late S7. Sam is trying on his own to deal with everything he's been through. Dean's just not having that.

Short one-shot. Peter Parker returns home, battle-worn and wounded, to make good on his promise to his Aunt May. Amazing Spiderman 2012-movieverse.

Pain scales are good, except when they aren't. Hurt!Sam, hurt!Dean, some humor, and some angst.

It was dark in hell. Now that Sam's back, he can't get enough light. The only problem? Sometimes light burns. AU post-hell. Lots of angst, hurt!Sam, and awesome big brother Dean.

A simple salt and burn becomes something much more when Sam lands in the hospital and it ends up pushing both brothers almost to their breaking point. Hurt!Sam! Protective Dean, Set Season Seven, so some spoilers.

Missing scenes from 7.17, The Born-Again Identity. Sam's in danger of falling apart, but it's Dean's strength that helps him keep it together.

7.17 tag. In which Sam and Dean clean up in the aftermath of the hospital.

Tag to MBV: Sam has recovered from his withdrawal enough to come back upstairs. But he doesn't want to. Dean's POV. Up now Ch2: the next morning.

A collection of S7-related one-shots and tags. #15: Good Clown, Bad Clown: Tag to "Plucky Pennywhistle's Magical Menagerie". Dean's feeling guilty, and finds a way to make it up to Sam.

The Monster at the End of This Book tag: There were whole books about their personal lives. How could they not read?

Set vaguely early S7. Coming to from another "hell seizure", Sam overhears a telling conversation between Dean & Bobby.

"Ok, I'm going to do something, and you're going to think I'm a girl, but you're not going to say anything, because you're my brother." Sam finds a creative way to deal with Lucifer.

AU ending to 7.17. Sooner or later, everybody runs out of miracles.

7x16 tag. Maybe Dean couldn't shut Lucifer up and get Sam to sleep. But he could turn off the radio.

7.17 tag. For the briefest of moments, as Sam looks around the darkened motel room, he's surprised to realize he's disappointed that it's quiet.

Tag to "Repo Men" Letting the Devil back in.

7.13 coda. The days that Sam doesn't go running are the bad days. The day after Emma's death is a bad day.

Sam's going downhill fast. Dean's going with him. Spoilers for unaired episodes.

It was the simple things from their lives before Hell, Lucifer, and Leviathans that Dean missed most. Like stitching up a bleeding Sam who wasn't hallucinating that the suture needle was a meat hook.

Lucifer burns cold, so when it gets really cold Sam hallucinates more. What happens when the heating stops working at the cabin they are staying at?

written for the prompt: "Season 7, post The Mentalists. Um, what was up with Sam's bent spoon? No, really. Who did that? Subconscious telekinesis is all it takes to turn hallucination into reality."

A bloody, unconscious Sam is taken to a small clinic by strangers. When he wakes up, he's not himself. It's up to Dean to track him down and bring him back physically and psychologically. Spoilers up to 7.03

Leaning further into each other, they stood their ground. It was how they had survived every storm they've ever weathered. It was how they would survive this one too. *Tissue warning!* Angst, Humor H/C, Drama, De-aged Sam, AwesomeBigBrotherDean

Sam's struggling to deal with the mess of his mind and Dean feels helpless. Dean's ready to grab onto anything that can alleviate his brother's pain, even if it's imperfect and only temporary.

Post 6.22. Dean finds himself with one broken arm, one broken car, and one broken brother. But they've had worse. With Sam safe, alive, and with him, they can handle it. Right? Turns out he doesn't know the half of it.

Hell isn't just in Sam's head anymore. AU from S6 at some point.

Sam's a bit out of touch since the wall fell, tangled and jumbled. Being around Dean lets him stumble back into reality now and again.

A softer take on Dean and Sam and the post-finale fallout. A flash of exasperated, powers!Sammy and initially worried!Dean.

AU. Yes, the old Snape retrieves Harry from the Dursleys formula. I just had to write one. Everything changes, because the best revenge is living well. T for Mentor Snape's occasional naughty language. Supportive Minerva. Over three million hits!

Part 16 of the Fusion 'verse. Sam has a bad night. Dean has a bad day. They both make it through anyway.

AU New ending to S4: Dean got to the convent in time. Sam didn't kill Lilith. The Cage was locked forever. This is what happens after that. 'Yep, another WIP.' Sick Sam & protective Dean to start with. Lisa & Ben are in the story, FYI.

Pre-series – Injured Sam / Big Brother Dean / Somewhat Awesome John – For a horrifying, heart-stopping moment, Sam was gone; was nothing more than a distorted blur of color beneath the water.

OneShot. Hermione witnesses Ron being there for Harry. Set during Deathly Hallows. Ron/Harry NOT SLASH!

Comment fic: Sam's first glimpse in the mirror once the wall comes down shows a broken, battered soul.

Sam realizes that sometimes being a Winchester is a good thing. Pre-series. Teenage Sam, protective Dean & John. Not complete yet. Will end up being a few chapters long.

Part 15 of the Fusion 'verse. Sam finds a way to help out.

Pre-series – Sick Sam / Surprisingly Awesome John / Big Brother Dean – "He's sick, and it's only a matter of time before neither of you can ignore it anymore."

AU from 5.03. Sam discovers something wrong with himself, and learns to live with it. Only a lot less functional.

AU tag to 6x22 – Seizure Sam, Big Brother Dean, Awesome Bobby – Maybe Bobby had been right; maybe this dog was exactly what they needed.

#14 in the Fusion 'verse. Sam takes a wrong turn in Sioux Falls looking for Dean, and finds some unexpected help along the way.

#13 in the Fusion 'verse. Sam and Dean look for a house.

A collection of S6-related one-shots and tags. #17: Fallout: Sam's sleeping. Some kid left a book in the motel room. After the events of "The Man Who Knew Too Much", Dean reflects.

COMPLETE: A missing moment featuring Remus' boggart lesson with the Slytherins. Set in Harry's third year. Protective Snape and generally awesome Remus.

Schmoopy gapfiller for Mannequin3. Not being able to help just might be the worst kind of torture.

A collection of what-if type stories. Nothing plot-changing, just little things. Chapter 4: What if Harry had been a little late meeting Voldemort in the forest? What if everyone saw his saccrifice?

The wall's coming down slowly and taking Sam with it piece by piece. Dean stands by his brother and steals every moment he can.

Even when Dean can't understand Sam, he knows he's there.

The wall cracks more and Sam recalls something Cas had hoped he wouldn't. Slight 6x17 spoilers.

#12 in the Fusion 'verse. Sam gets strep throat and somehow it's Dean who ends up on the doctor's exam table.

#11 in the Fusion 'vere. Sam walks out of hell and finds his way home.

Somehow he was floating free. And it wasn't water anymore. It was blood...it was sulfur...it was fire. And he was drowning in it. Coda to "The French Mistake."

Sam's powers develop at a much earlier age. But the more they progress, the harder it is for him to cope. One-shot. H/C Warning: self-harm, language, slight possible spoiler for the first half of season 6.

It starts with music and goes downhill from there. There's something wrong in Sam's head.

Dean gets Sam a present, which is weird enough already. When Sam sees what the present is, the initial amusement wears off quickly. Season 6.

#10 in the Fusion 'verse. Margery pays Sam a visit, mostly because she's curious about the mysterious new friend who is supposed to be looking after him while Dean is off in the city training his new helper dog.

Ben gets an up close look at what family really means.

#9 in the Fusion 'verse, set just after Simple Misadventure: Sam isn't sure what's real anymore.

#8 in the Fusion 'verse. A simple coffee run goes wrong, because accidents can happen to anyone.

Sequel to Moonless Night - this is Eclipse from Edward's point of view.

Tag to 6.13 SPOILERS. Sam inhales sharply and then coughs as he sucks in some of the dirt from the floor. Dean sounds scared and Sam knows why.

Tag to 6.11 Appointment in Samarra and 6.12 Like a Virgin. "Come on, man. You're scaring me." Dean was practically holding him off the wet ground now.

A rough hunt leaves the brothers battered and bleeding. They take care of each other but, as always, someone else has their backs.

Sort of a sequel and a companion piece to Dudley's Memories. Harry is finding a healthy outlet for his "saving people thing" in the form of one damaged little boy. In doing so he finds himself thinking about his old teacher, quite a bit.

Sam's not been scratching the wall. Dean's been the Awesome Big Brother. But when the good guys need information, Sam will have to put his sanity on the line. In the aftermath, Dean will have to be the big brother in more ways than one. Spoilers to 6.11.

#7 in the Fusion 'verse. Dean has to go away for a few days, and leaves Sam in the care of a friend.

AU tag to 6.11 – One minute Sam was screaming...and the next, he wasn't even breathing. He had lost consciousness the instant Death had disappeared from the panic room, and how they had ended up in the emergency room was still a blur to Dean.

Pre-Series, Teenchesters – It was just routine surgery. But this was Sam. Nothing was routine. - Sick!Hurt!Hospitalized!Sam, Worried!Awesome!BigBrother!Dean – John, Bobby, and Pastor Jim also included

Sam starts receiving mysterious packages wherever he goes. Spoilers up to 6.11.

Watching him, Dean could almost pretend that Sam was not so destroyed as he really was. He could be sleeping...right? Sequel to "When the Levee Breaks," set after "Appointment in Samarra."

AU Tag to 6.11 – Sam had his soul back, but he was...different. Less Sammy, more Rain Man. But being electrocuted – even if it was only minor – had the potential to be life-changing. Such was the case.

He wasn't scratching the wall. The wall was scratching him. Clawing at him, more like. Tearing at him. Wearing him down. Set after "Appointment in Samarra."

Sam learned in hell how to tell not-Dean from real-Dean. Rated for references to torture and other nasty things.

#6 in the Fusion 'verse. Sam goes missing shortly before Christmas, and Dean manages not to freak out completely.

Sam carries the cold inside him now. Dean's trying to pick up the pieces.

All that time in the Cage…didn't they know? Nothing ever comes back right. Unstable!Sam

When Sam gets his soul back, how does Dean know it's really his brother?

Outside POV. Season 6 vague spoilers. Two men show up in the dead of night, one bleeding, the other damaged

Season 6. Sam couldn't be 'okay' forever. And when the dam broke, it broke. Unstable!Sam

#5 in the Fusion 'verse. In which Sam and Dean have a chick-flick moment in the wee hours of the morning, because apparently they were totally overdue, and we all know Dean likes them even when he pretends not to.

#4 in the Fusion 'verse. Sam and Dean have an unexpected encounter in the bookstore where Dean works.

#2 in the Fusion 'verse. The whole town knows that, sometimes, Sam Winchester doesn't have the good sense to come in out of the rain.

Minerva needs help delivering another letter to #4 Privet Drive. At forty, Dudley is not at all what Harry expects. A long overdue conversation ensues. DH cannon compliant, but probably not the way you think. Prologue to "Snape's Memories".

Dean and Sam settle down in order to deal with the aftermath of the apocalypse.

Dean and Sam are cursed to switch bodies for 48 hours toward the end of Season 5. It's just temporary, so they carry on as best they can, except that Dean finds himself struggling with the unfamiliar sensations of addiction and cravings. Warnings inside.

Tag to MBV. Sam wakes up in the panic room with young Dean. When is an hallucination not an hallucination? Up now Ch2: Cas tries his mojo on Dean.

Those little anti-possession charms aren't foolproof. Loose sequel to "Rest Your Weary Head."

In the aftermath of the Mystery Spot ordeal, Sam and Dean encounter an old enemy, and Sam might pay for it with his life. Set mid-Season 3, after Jus In Belo. Rated T for some bad language. Originally published in Brotherhood 8 fanzine in May 2009.

Post 5x16: Dean thought he'd seen all of Sam's perfect moments. Finding out he didn't, and that he missed a pivotal one, leads to not only trying to get a certain object back, but also trying to make things right with Sam.

Post 5x13. Even though he'd been patched up, as promised, Sam still feels...off.

Tag to 5x22, Swan Song. Three different ways Sam might have appeared on the sidewalk outside Lisa's, and one way he did not. Some horror imagery, rated T to be safe.

Tag to MBV - Sam observes Dean on their drive from Famine to panic room. Companion piece to my stories "Where There's Life" and "Coming Upstairs" but you don't need to read them to understand this story.

Spoilers for 5x14-My Bloody Valentine. Famine is dead, and now Sam and Dean have to figure out how they can fight the apocalypse if one is hopeless and the other is dead inside. But first they have to get to Bobby’s.

Sam's always been the selfish one. Set S5.

Tag to MBV: Sam's detox is over. Dean knows it's his fault Sam had to go through it again.

Two-shot tag to 5.13 & 5.14 SPOILERS. Dean isn't sure what to expect when he gets back to the motel room but he'd be lying if he said he wasn't terrified to find out.

Dean may have missed something important. Sam misses having the normal amount of his abnormal blood. And they both miss the way things were before. Missing hurt!Sam scene to 4.19 “Jump the Shark”.

Title Translation: I Will Fear No Evil. Waking up tied to a bed is never a good thing, as Sam is about to find out. Where the heck is Dean?

Even when they try to relax, things go wrong. But, Dean does finally get to hear some of what Sam is thinking, so that's something.

This is my version of New Moon as told from Edward's point of view. The dialogue is borrowed from New Moon when Edward and Bella are together , but the rest is my interpretation of what the story would have been like if Edward would have told it.

The weight on Sam's chest was nearly crushing. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't think. Terror overtook him and he found himself struggling to stay conscious. His mind was screaming for his brother. Limp!Sam

Set post-Lucifer Rising. Sam and Dean try to deal with the growing distance between them. But, finding their way just might be their toughest battle yet. Co-written with geminigrl11. Rated T.

Post Lucifer Rising. During the first hours of the end of the world, Sam can only wish that everything was a figment of his imagination. Except for Dean, who has come and got him, and is bent on proving he isn’t going anywhere. Oneshot

After Snape's visit to Surrey, Harry writes him a thank you letter that triggers an extended correspondence between the two of them. Sequel to The Guiltless.

New Moon AU, E/B. After Edward leaves her, Bella's haze and her danger magnet lead her down a path of abandonment, insanity, and the very edge of death. How do the pieces of her life fit back together again? Full summary inside.

Two shot. An injured Sam. A double dose of Bobby's painkiller and a worried/protective/sweet-hearted Dean

Sex and Violence tag: They're not gonna talk about it, of course...but Winchesters find other ways.

Mystery Spot missing day: The taco wasn't funny at all.

Dean is injured by a poisoned arrow on a hunt. Sam's got it.

Another tag to 4.22 Dean & Sam are driving through the night away from the convent. Sam is miserable and despondent. Dean is - Dean.

Tag for Lucifer Rising

Dean grabbed Sam and ran. It was time to reap what they'd sown. Tag for 4.22 Lucifer Rising. First of two parts. Rated T for some language.

It took a split second, the longest split second in Dean's life to understand. And once he did, he wanted to scream even louder than Sam had just seconds before. The realization pulled the floor out from under Dean's feet. Sam thought he was dead.

Missing Scene for "Levee". Dean and Bobby cuff Sam to the cot. Dean's POV.

It had been two days since the demon had vowed that Dean would never talk to his little brother again. One-shot.

Post 4x14: Sam wakes up and realizes that something went wrong with the last hunt. In the same token, though, it might've made things right between him and Dean again. Hurt!Sam, worried!Dean, helpful!Bobby, angst, brotherly h/c.

"I gotcha, Bobby's gotcha, we gotcha. I gotcha, 's okay." words like balsam dripping into Dean's mind.

Missing scenes from Lazarus Rising, told from Sam's perspective

One phone call sometimes holds the power to change everything. WARNING: Spoilers for Season 4, Episode 1. Don't read if you want to stay spoiler-free, not until the episode airs. Full summary inside.

For lissa ann - Three days after being possessed, Sam's still seeing the blood on his hands and the black in his eyes. Hurthurthurt!emo!Sam, patient!worried!Dean, self-harm, nightmares, happy frickin' ending, Wee!Chester flashback.

Spoilers for 3x12: Jus In Bello. Henrickson's smart-ass comment reveals a surprising truth Sam didn't want known. Hurt!Sam, angry!Dean, bad!John. Happy ending, though. WARNING: mentions of father abusing his child sexual . Nothing graphic.

Sent on a hunt by an old friend, Dean is poisoned and then horribly injured after their prey attacks him. Even if Sam can figure it out can he save Dean? Or will he make a mistake that will cost his brother his life? HurtDean, protective Sam. NOW COMPLET

After a week of riding shotgun inside his own body, Sam needs to know that he's the one in control.

On day 327 Dean doesn't feel the slightest bit guilty about punching a kid in the face, but only after he has used an EpiPen on his brother and made sure he is still breathing. AU as soon as season three starts.

Sixth year AU, written pre HBP. When Harry appears at the Welcoming Feast wearing a glamor only Snape notices, Snape decides to find out what the glamor is hiding. His investigation leads to a number of shocking revelations about both Harry and himself.

Set in the Strangers and Angels universe. A series of phone calls. And then a trip home.

Tag to Born Under a Bad Sign – what happens when Sam must save Dean, because there is no such thing as a simple bullet wound.

EPILOGUE ADDED What happens when the boys are stranded and one of them becomes violently ill?

Preseries. Scholarships don't pay for everything. When you're not talking to your family, that makes summer the worst time of the year.

Dean and Sam return to visit Jo and her family.

Sam’s visions spiral out of control when he is psychically connected to a girl who uses pain to ensure cooperation. Dean struggles to protect his brother, while Sam must find strength within if he is to survive.

A refreshing twist on an old tale: A house's spiritcleansing gone wrong. Oneshot.

Worn out, the boys stop at a remote motel to get shelter from a storm.

We get a look inside Dean's head. Unfortunately, so does Sam. Some things were never meant to be shared. Rated for strong language.

Harry snorted with laughter and Sirius ruffled his hair indignantly before slinging an arm over his shoulder and leading him downstairs for a very overdue talk.

Set postOotP: This is a story of Harry's quest for absolution. It is his reaction to Sirius' death and how his friends try to help him. Will Remus learn to reach out before it is too late? Still a work in progress, but currently on hold.

Harry begins to have vivid dreams...happy dreams, showing what his life might have been like with his parents. But Dumbledore and Snape think this is the Dark Lord’s doing, and that it needs to be undone. COMPLETE

For all those who've read Recnac...what if things had ended differently? WARNING: character death. READ AUTHOR'S NOTE!

[Sequel to Recnac and Flawed] A glimpse into Harry's life at age 23 after everything that's happened to him. One-shot!

[Sequel to Recnac Transfaerso] Finally, Harry's in for a perfect summer with his godfather and friends, or so it begins. But being Harry Potter means that nothing can stay peaceful for long. {Complete}

After Sirius' death, Harry begins to have awkward dreams at night, and during the day his mind plays tricks on him. Trying to solve the mystery, Harry returns to the Death Chamber that holds the dais, and discovers something he never expected. FINISHED

Post Never Alone, Never Again. Harry has a secret. Are Sirius and Remus ready to hear it?

In a rash act of self-sacrifice, Harry saves a dying Muggle by magically transfering the man's cancer to himself. Now, going through his fifth year with a terrible secret, he begins to realize just what he's given up. H/G, R/Hr. Warning: abuse

This was not a Soc Darry’s muscles could scare off, not a nightmare Soda’s arm would chase away. This was inside me, eating away, and no matter how much my brother’s wanted to get rid of it they were helpless.